hey hey!!! i'm so so glad that finally RCC phase 1 is over. 5 days outfield, RTI training and conclude with a urban recce. Ok it was shag, i requires alot of determination and i'm glad i've pulled it through by the grace of God. What's better is the feeling of wearing the jungle hat, woo hoo!! yay i'm pretty much done with RCC. I'm just really really happy.

And congrats my dear bunkmate NIGEL KEITH,, happy 20!!. Glad to have u in bunk, altho you always piss me off, making fun of me, but i guess that's what that made us bond as brothers. We've gone thru shit in RCC and we're now a pride wearer of the jungle hat. You showed me real strength despite your weaknesses. Last bbq was really fun, haha. Of course your nice food you've bought for 5.1 POWER la.

WL replied my mail! haha...i really hope that i can cont to faithfully write to her every fortnightly. I've seen few of her sketches, power la! no wonder she's arty farty. really missed her.

Just last week, pastor talk about sonship. This week, i had it slipped off my mind. I was off focus, i left cg for the bbq and didn't inform wayne. The thing is, i missed the connect leader meeting. I wasn't told, but i could have taken the intiative to be accountable to my leader abt my wherebout. Ok this didn't happen just this once, but few times before alr. I guess this is my character flaws. I'm trying to change, nobody is perfect. To me, i see accountability of utmost importance, but at the same time i'm having a tough time doing it myself. Sure it's really tough. Many may know me as loud, smiling all the times, but my close friend would have seen my serious side. Turning 21 alr this year, time for me to step up and be really discipled. I know i need it. But it's one tough road up.

Today jamming at alvron, brought back many nostalgic feeling. Still remember back in 03, when i was with revo, still starting out, we have no complains on the equipment. NOw, haha it's really bad. But still i thought the session was really fruitful. We covered much ground despite it being impromtu. Everyone was on the ball to flow with one another, i see much potential here.

Adeline granny got in hopst, i think is quite serious, and she's close to her one. CG's been praying hard that she'll pull thru this round. AND Justine told me today her grandpa also got into hopst, also about to go alr. I don't know what to say, but hate this kind of feeling. Like friend around you, this kind of bad news happening, what to do? how do i go about consoling them when really something happen. I feel i'm a lousy friend when i fail to cheer them up. And often that's so true rite. Life is fragile, take time to appreciate your love one when they're alive, u nv know what's gonna happen next.

Sorry for the long post and incoherent no link topics. Guess that's just my style of blogging, no link.

just did my combat survival training this week. Errr highlight includes 40 hr fasting, follow by a quail killing session when we're at hungriest point of time! grrrrr it's pretty straight forward. I tell u, nothing else tast better at that point in time, because you're really so tired!! Ok this week pass really fast, in fact these 2 weeks all very fast, cuz all outfield!! Pls pray for me, i'm be away again, this time in tekong for 5 days mission. Expect very little sleep, and i'm dying alr, RTI is up, this time on me, imagine no water for 12 hours, grrr!!! don't know what stupid things the interrogator will do to me. Guess i can only look forward to the jungle hat presentation!! woo hoo..

I love what pastor preach about sonship, the way we should carry our church DNA, esp follow in the vision, sacrificing all so that you can be the one who will support the church vision all the way. Doing the will of God. Arise and build 08, i guess it's gonna be a hell of a ride once again. I'm looking forward to it :)

I'm finally back for this weekend! This is ultimate shag to the max. Ex. Longwalk was a killer. 60+km in 39 hours in 30kg fieldpack. I'm done for mentally the moment i reach end point. Yet the sense of pride grew so strongly inside of me, the moment I think i've achieve this crazy feat. Praise God for leading me through, i didn't screw up in my navigation. Now i'm a step closer to my jungle hat! yoohoo. For now i just was to slack in my bed, next week another shag session, 4 days outfield.

I think i'm starting to get emo alr. Cuz wl is gonna leave for UK on the 15th! Time really fly. So many regrets, so many thing i tried to forget. everytime i think about it, my mood sunk.