I really hate myself for what i've done today.

Perhaps cutting away from you will do both of us good.
I shouldn't have think too much
I gotta stay focus
Until i can solve the whole pack problems i have with me
Until i finish this remaining 4 months in NS
Life ain't perfect, people do screw up
The beauty comes with the grace of God
I need to shake myself off these thoughts
It's painful but i know i gotta do it.

Now it is really gone...

probably one of the best night i have in a while

Finally ISPC start tomorrow, and i'm really praying for a breakthru this time round. Ain't gonna be easy, but i'm putting up a fight of faith!

to Cheng:
hey girl, i know you've been reading, thanks for the sms. I'll probably catch up wid u soon the moment i've more time k, so sorry!

Tim:
Bro u still my buddie no matter what, altho i still wonder why am i'm always the one asking to meet you.

last night was hell for me.

I use to be a firm believer of friendship. when in time of need, good friend will rush down to meet you irregardless of where you are. I had no one.. and i really needed someone to listen last night. nvm..

Finally, i'm just with the inprocessing for upcoming scouts course for my men. It take lots of hardwork planning the stores, fighting for item that we can take from our limited resources, settling lots of paper work, like finally i'm done.

I quite satisfied on my fitness as well, at least i feel that i'm ready for scouts course wid my men. It'll be a real test for me as a commander, physically, mentally, spiritually even, i do hope that i can mature through this course..and off i go to ORD mood.

Looking really forward to 24th july, my Perth roadtrips with my fellow 4e classmates.
Powerpack, and it's all storing up, lets hope that all things go well this time round!!

I've never felt so worn out be4..