I went for platoon outing last wed at safra yishun. We played bowling!!
Guess wat i got the best score ever, really. Both frames over 100+ haha.



This is Surv 5.1

I really like this picture :) Cheers to team LN 1st Anniversary

well i'm finally back to unit once again. Feels really good to be back at 6SIR, esp the bunks. More importantly as a 3sgt. Haha, now we can go mess at our own discretion. Wed was the worst day. I thought it's just merely a day for my graduation. Last minute got bombarded by our new PC to go outfield!! this is really crap tho. We walked from upp thomson road to asrama for some infiltration movement. Well tho, i'm not there for the excercise but to become like a middleman, safety spec to supervise a section. The walk was long, and i mean quite long, around 15km. Haha thank God i'm recce train. Anyway along the trail, we all felt sleepy as everyone follow through in single file. Then we had to cross this water obstacles. My torch fell in! while i'm searching for a path for my guys. Worst i fell in, around hip deep. Hiaz my phone got soak, gone case. Overall i'm trying to say that our presence there was totally unnecessary. No one is expecting us, and we last minute kena this crap up exercise. What a wonderful first day as a sergeant that made it so memorable for me.

Anyway i got a IPOD video 30GB for only 140!! thru a forum, and the cond is fantastic. Haha now i don't have to suffer with my 2GB stone which kept jamming.

hey hey!!! i'm so so glad that finally RCC phase 1 is over. 5 days outfield, RTI training and conclude with a urban recce. Ok it was shag, i requires alot of determination and i'm glad i've pulled it through by the grace of God. What's better is the feeling of wearing the jungle hat, woo hoo!! yay i'm pretty much done with RCC. I'm just really really happy.

And congrats my dear bunkmate NIGEL KEITH,, happy 20!!. Glad to have u in bunk, altho you always piss me off, making fun of me, but i guess that's what that made us bond as brothers. We've gone thru shit in RCC and we're now a pride wearer of the jungle hat. You showed me real strength despite your weaknesses. Last bbq was really fun, haha. Of course your nice food you've bought for 5.1 POWER la.

WL replied my mail! haha...i really hope that i can cont to faithfully write to her every fortnightly. I've seen few of her sketches, power la! no wonder she's arty farty. really missed her.

Just last week, pastor talk about sonship. This week, i had it slipped off my mind. I was off focus, i left cg for the bbq and didn't inform wayne. The thing is, i missed the connect leader meeting. I wasn't told, but i could have taken the intiative to be accountable to my leader abt my wherebout. Ok this didn't happen just this once, but few times before alr. I guess this is my character flaws. I'm trying to change, nobody is perfect. To me, i see accountability of utmost importance, but at the same time i'm having a tough time doing it myself. Sure it's really tough. Many may know me as loud, smiling all the times, but my close friend would have seen my serious side. Turning 21 alr this year, time for me to step up and be really discipled. I know i need it. But it's one tough road up.

Today jamming at alvron, brought back many nostalgic feeling. Still remember back in 03, when i was with revo, still starting out, we have no complains on the equipment. NOw, haha it's really bad. But still i thought the session was really fruitful. We covered much ground despite it being impromtu. Everyone was on the ball to flow with one another, i see much potential here.

Adeline granny got in hopst, i think is quite serious, and she's close to her one. CG's been praying hard that she'll pull thru this round. AND Justine told me today her grandpa also got into hopst, also about to go alr. I don't know what to say, but hate this kind of feeling. Like friend around you, this kind of bad news happening, what to do? how do i go about consoling them when really something happen. I feel i'm a lousy friend when i fail to cheer them up. And often that's so true rite. Life is fragile, take time to appreciate your love one when they're alive, u nv know what's gonna happen next.

Sorry for the long post and incoherent no link topics. Guess that's just my style of blogging, no link.

just did my combat survival training this week. Errr highlight includes 40 hr fasting, follow by a quail killing session when we're at hungriest point of time! grrrrr it's pretty straight forward. I tell u, nothing else tast better at that point in time, because you're really so tired!! Ok this week pass really fast, in fact these 2 weeks all very fast, cuz all outfield!! Pls pray for me, i'm be away again, this time in tekong for 5 days mission. Expect very little sleep, and i'm dying alr, RTI is up, this time on me, imagine no water for 12 hours, grrr!!! don't know what stupid things the interrogator will do to me. Guess i can only look forward to the jungle hat presentation!! woo hoo..

I love what pastor preach about sonship, the way we should carry our church DNA, esp follow in the vision, sacrificing all so that you can be the one who will support the church vision all the way. Doing the will of God. Arise and build 08, i guess it's gonna be a hell of a ride once again. I'm looking forward to it :)

I'm finally back for this weekend! This is ultimate shag to the max. Ex. Longwalk was a killer. 60+km in 39 hours in 30kg fieldpack. I'm done for mentally the moment i reach end point. Yet the sense of pride grew so strongly inside of me, the moment I think i've achieve this crazy feat. Praise God for leading me through, i didn't screw up in my navigation. Now i'm a step closer to my jungle hat! yoohoo. For now i just was to slack in my bed, next week another shag session, 4 days outfield.

I think i'm starting to get emo alr. Cuz wl is gonna leave for UK on the 15th! Time really fly. So many regrets, so many thing i tried to forget. everytime i think about it, my mood sunk.

money no enough 2 event today was awesome. I'm glad i brought my mum. I glad she enjoyed it. And I've learn to cherish her more after the show. I think Jack's movie has really gone up the next level, bringing in not just a comedy,(laugh and forget kind of movie) but rather something with substance or specific theme. It has a strong theme of filial piety which the current Asian culture is losing because of western influence. I particularly love the hokkien song, mother just a name. Even though the melody i don't quite catch it, the emotion was strong when the singer sang it live. It was a good chance for me to express my love for my mum today as well. You don't have to wait till mother's day to tell your mum that you love her, start today!

I hurt my back over the week. Particularly in my spinal area. I guess i should have taken more precaution in carrying the heavy load. It was a tough week and even more to come. I hate the fact that everywhere i go, i've to lug the alispack with me, and it's not light. I it so heavy that i need to lie down strap myself onto the fieldpack and slowly get up. Fast march was a killer. My brain just shut down the moment i reach end point. I know could only live to look forward to a brand new day, after each daily siong training. I could have just give up, but i choose not to. Because i am strong. For God works within me. I could have carry a sian mood, but i choose to keep my spirit up. I am strong. Thanks for the nice hearty meal at NYDC on friday. It really serves as a reminder for me that i can continue to forward to booking out each week. Thank you Lord.

I'm watching the table tennis olympics finals now, it sure is very excited. But i guess we all know the eventual outcome, though kudos to the women team that made it to the final yea! One thing i've to say.. China's Zhang Yining is really a monster of her own, period, haha.

Some updates,
I'll be heading on course, RCC tomorrow. I'm mentally prepared. Probably will be one of the toughest period in my army life. I caught a glimpse of hell fast march on the crazy load. I could almost died. The alispack does not help much either. I dread goin in, but it's a giant i've to face, because i know i'll become stronger. This week have been fruitful. Prayer meetings in the morning is awesome. and i'm loving it. I really wish i could have attend this week as well! PLC is super near church la. Ok i just want to sleep now. Haven't been sleeping well.

PS: I got a really good friend who got attached! and she nv tell me :( i know U r reading this!!

one important area of every human life is LOVE. Everyone needs love, everyone is looking for love, and everyone is finding somebody to love. It is also a area that i feel we have to guard ourselves carefully as well. Do not love someone for your own selfish desire, love the person for who he/she really is. It's a happy thing, and one should really enjoy it to God's original intent. Just like Christ love for us all. I met this person recently, we hit off quite well, but i've just got to guard my heart for now. Recee course coming, cell groups multiplying, gonna be quite busy from next week. Still I really thank God for his grace this week, for the many days of off i've been given. This is really power. Morning prayer meeting at jurong west even more power. Gosh i'm addicted to this morning prayer, i just feel so fresh after that. :)

I went over to visit the MO today. Basically i got into a minor accident on the road last saturday that hurt my feet. I shan't disclose the details but basically i am reffered over to CMPB medical centre department for x-ray. I think it's not that serious, since i'm still able to walk.

A brief highlight over the past 2 days.

Sunday was sentosa splash, and it was a blast! really..altho i didn't really perticipate much because of my injury, still it's enjoyable enjoyable enough for all. Most importantly many new friends enjoys the hypness of the whole event. My team voila won 3rd! haha. yea i got badly tan..now have singlet tan line which is disgusting! Sadly i lost one of my favourite jacket that i left in the toilet. Can't believe I was that careless to have left it in the shower. I tried flying back to the island from vivo, but to no avail. Ahrgg!!

Monday - i went over to Lor Asrama to chop trees, for A frames building session. Let me tell you somethings, fruits in the wild are extremely delicious! I found rambutans, durian and jackfruits. Ha only the rambutan is in edible state, but well it sure was fun trying to find all these fruits, doing stupid things to shake the rambutans down.

Well nothing much to reports, except that i'm enjoying my rest at home today because of a half day off.

I think it's time for me to move on in live as well. What's mean to be, it's mean to be. nonetheless, i still feel the tangling feeling in my heart. I miss talking to her.

I've decided to enroll myself to class 2a bike course. Basically my current bike coe coming to a end and i'm not intending to continue riding it. So probably i'm sharing a bigger cc bike with my brother. yup... But this will be quite financial straining for me. And now that i've got start putting money back to my sister cpf account for my poly education. Dang... felt really strained financially. Let's pray for a financial breakthrough!

So i've finally decided to pull the plug for now. It's a hard decision but one that i have to make for the good of everyone. I'm not sad just disappointed that i've to resort to this...

everytime i get home, i still remember to put either $1 or $0.50 into the green elephant. It just makes me happy.

What Yap Pow Wee Means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I had a very disheartening week. 3 of my bunk mates were injured 2 of which is when we're doing our enemy POI deployment. Crazy alpha and Bravo company, Support company was actually kind enough to deploy our precious manpower to help them to simulate some real time action. Shannon had a exoskeletal sprains on his arm. one of the bravo guy had JUDO him down. Ben has minor tissue tear on his right knees, apparently while running away from alpha guys, they gave chase, he fell and they pin him down real hard. Mark suffered from appendicitis yesterday morning and he has a really hard time because NUH has no C ward for him and his family had to shift him to Mt alvernia, which he did the ops there. So not possibly for him and shannon, they'll most prob be down for reccee commander course. Arhgg...

I felt that i'm losing grips of many things in life right now. And i'm just lost on how am ever gonna makes things right for myself. So often there i've really thought of just giving up, then i'll no longer have financial, emotional, mental strains at least. And i'm not talking about girls here, truth is i've been feeling dry lately. I last time always wonder how was it like for my friend to gone through the process of backsliding and the constant struggle to fight to come back, often they just choose to leave. Now i'm catching a glimpse of it alr. I doubt that i make a good connect group leader, cause seriously judging from my fruits i'm a far league away from ppl like peng,yl or even cheesy. I mean these are the most hardworking bunch of youth i've seen, working so hard tirelessly for christ sakes. I respect them, but i doubt i've that capacity. Too many doubts, too little fruits, and hectic shedules coming up in unit. How?..

have you felt totally useless when u fail to make the you love most happy. And there's totally really nothing you can do.

Ok just that for me..it's not the one i love..but rather a friend that i'm dying to have, to know her..well she's special to me, don't know why i suddenly felt quite weird when i met her to pass her some chocolate and cookies. Indeed we're living in stressful times, all i want is for her to be happy. looks like i failed badly even as friend. Ha who am i kidding...it seems like i've crossed the path of no return. How am i ever going to bring down this thick layer of wall that plague this relationship.

Anyway i was badly drench while sending my friend to changi to run some errand, think i'm catching a cold soon. bleugh...i really hate falling sick. I'm glad to have book out but tomrrow is another day of sleepless night because of POI enemy deployment.

And i so love my new HTC touch that i bought last week. Hail to PDA phone, they made my life so much more interesting

DO you believe in fate?

What i've plan for 2 weeks end up in total nothing.

I've no idea why i bother to recee the ground, wash my helmet, it's just suppose to be a simple farewell dinner for her.

Somehow.. something just crop up

I think no point in marking the calendar, 29th is a day i'll remember.

Just not fated..

well today is battalion anniversay off day at safra Yishun. It means off for half a day la! haha.. early in the morning at 7am i've to report in, i drag myself up cause i was still super sleepy. Had a good time of bowling with my bunkmates, esp those crazy changing of names while bowling like CHEEKOK, TYCO KIA, CHARLIE BRAVO KILO, KOH SOON LI, LOGAN, NIGELLA, AH PUI SEOW, TAN KOK SAI, man! all these bring back funny memories things that happen in army. anw i did say i was sleepy so you see, the previous night i had supper with wayne, cheesy and sen min near bugis there.

But last night was Arty farty night for me. Went to this place to watch local short films where wayne found through his fass friends, and i tot wow. I really love this place, and it might possibly well be my next secret hide-out. Ok i can't reveal this place, cuz i made pact with wayne not to divulge the location. Ok why this place is so special, because firstly it's really quiet, so esp when you want to have some peace of mind away from stressful work environment, it's really helpful. 2nd, you can do few things, like just go there for a stroll to admire the retro architecture, interesting signboards, nice lunch out or catch short films! And i rly mean that the staff over there are really friendly.

i've felt quite disappointed lately, because of the way i feel my friends taking me for granted. Example, in the area of time. Because i think that now when in army, time has become something of great importance to me and i made the decision to be a good steward of time, by being on time. anw i ended waiting for a group of friends for around an hour! after meeting time..and what i really can't stand is the fact that they didn't respect my value of time. Esp because of all the sacrifices i made to push my schedules aside just to be on time. Be a faithful steward of time, because you never know when your next big business opportunity comes, and imagine you being just a minute late, it's over. Ok there are also another instance when someone comes into my mind, and i decide to spend my nights maybe to meet up to chill, build up relationship, and there are those whom i really feel they just don't give a damn kind of attitude. No replies, no call back despite sometimes repeated messages or call. Ok i'm not desperate, at least respect friendship that has been forge in the past. Even if you don't even feel like meeting up, i mean it's a good manner to even reply, not leave somebody hanging down there in the air. I'm not here to pinpoint anyones, but just sharing some of thoughts that ran through my minds the past few days. Irritating...

Alright another person i want to thank also is Edmund. Thank God for him, who come to save me like almost immediately when i text him when i told him my bike died out somewhere near my house. Stupid me forget to pump petrol and left frantic and lost for a spur moment.

I'm glad i still went over to his place to him up after that for LOUD nightout, eventhough he almost last minute pang seh me. Everything's really rah rah last night, all where like woooo so hype up. Of course it really nice to see so many new faces. But more to that, it's the passion for the Lord that's bringing e406 to greater heights!

Ok last week i miss out on a important entry so here it goes..




This is my dad, and we had a wonderful ba kut teh session together on fathers day together with my family which include, my elder brother paul and sis-in-law vivi, my elder sister sharon and my bro-in-law jeffrey, my mum and baby niece joelle! Anyway i just want to reserve this small space to thank my earthly father. Truely I feel that God has bless me with this wonderful dad, who despite facing many problems, fought through daily to provide for the family, he's our pillar of strength, he may not say it but i know that love my mum and all his children. I appreciate all the things he's done to make me happy when i was younger, which was satisfied through material pessession and now that i've grown up, i thank him for trusting me with freedoms some youth may not have at my age. I've become who I am today, because he has taught me my moral value well, and i'm very thankful for that. 1001 things running through my head, but here's to my dad, I love you pa. Amazing to have this person as my dad, really!




And this is my niece joelle. Gosh chilli padi! but she never fails to make me smile most of the time.

Alright i gotta book in real soon for NDP rehersal, and tonight is gonna be another lengendary night with TEAM LN! muahahah

ps: TIM, come on la bro! you know that i'll miss you real bad if you go ns. who else am i gonna call out for frequent supper man! gosh. And i'm pretty sure you'll miss me just as bad.

Words can't describe how I exactly felt the moment I found out that i'm involved in this year NDP'08. OK I'm NOT the please, and I'm sure many of my bunk mate share with me the same sentiments. All my fridays and saturdays are burn man! I'm gonna like miss cell group and service for 2 months. I think somehow my connection with my cg will definitely take some draw back.

And Weilin is leaving really soon, i think like 2 months more, everything happen so quickly, gosh. Hmmm what can i do to treasure a person more before they leave. No matter what, I know that i won't have the chance after 2 months so might as well treasure I have at hand.

Ok thank God for speedy recovery in camp. I managed to just sleep in bunk the whole day on thurs to recoop. I was having a bad flu, sore throat and feeling groggy. Well i woke up in the mid day to play enemy in Alpha POI deployment in camp. It's like so fun wrecking their grounds, creating havok, and man! you guy should check out their reaction when we went over the the bench and steal their riffle and took stuffs metal detector and field chairs. They must have felt !!@%$&^%.

Alright time for my DRC (defensive riding course) so that i could ride in-camp legally, haha. I have a new nick, my bunk mates all call me chee-kok altho i totally have no why? LOL

Thanks gabriel for this pic. I tot it is priceless, cause i look so happy in it la!! it's at the end point btw

When you're in love, you tends to do stupid things! which I totally agree, surely i look like a dumbass! today... Don't feel like talking to much about it.

Just know that eating fruits are very important! many friends around me are falling sick one by one! gosh

I think I'm too used to hanging out with friends every weekend. Just one day at home! and i couldn't sit still...ARhgggg. I find it very hard to encourage and push my connect group. I sow in a lot of sweat into bringing Ed back to Christ, building relationship with him, suffered countless time of disappointments but i'm still pressing. So often, it's so easy to side track, you might end up forcing them unknowingly, but the key is still based on relationship. How man! Truth is, i really hate to arrange meetings, cause often people always want to know whose going etc and I've to like wrap up everything. It's tough and I really someone to talk to, I'm not even asking to be in a big scale party or wat, it's just drinking coffee at kopitiam, I'm THAT simple. Just this week, I've lost a friend, who decided to take a break from church for a while, he's a nice guy really, mighty man of God, people just take him for granted. I'm praying for him. Y does things have to turn out for him this way..

Anyway congrats Rhonda! we did it... I think you did a really awesome job pressing into the finishing line despite all the pain on ur knee and toes. And also to those who ran this race, like Chen huat, Tim, Jacky, Nigel, John, good job guys!!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in his wonderful face
And the things of this world will grow strangely dim
In the light of his glory and face

I think this is what that kept me going on in my Christian life. Without Christ, I am nothing.
I'll just have to fix my eye upon Jesus and nothing else matter, really..

It's gonna be fun. Looking forward to see daylight.

you know what!? i pass my driving test yesterday! haha amazingly, thank God and my cg members who kept me in prayers, luv u guys loads! So well i got a super low 6 demerit points, was quite surprised, but I'm all calm during the test. Some tips for those of you taking TP soon, just keep your testers feeling safe, and do all your checks, confirm sure pass, provided you must know how to react to adverse road conditions as well la.

So i did my island wide today, i got the opportunity to try the auto jeep, which feels like a convertible when you drive it cause it's open air, haha but I've to wear my SAF helmet for safety reason. The part that dread me most was the fact that we've to stick to our speed limits totally at 50km/h IMO is retarded. imagine you're traveling on expressway, it's torturous! and i have to clock 300km, that's crazy man. So far i only did 100km and it's very tiring because of the slow speed. Seow is a nice buddie you could have in a car, we just kept laughing chatting about random stuff.

I watch made of honor and i quite love it for the fact that i somehow can relate to some similar situation, of me taking my close female friends for granted at times. But it's really hilarious, all the gay scottish culture, following as MOH to see her change into hot lingerie, thunder beads! (that one is ultimate) i just kept laughing non stop, and sm and justine can come ask me what is it use for, gosh.. then we left for a short chill out at TCC douby for some really sucky drinks. That conclude my ACGLM(abandoned connect group leader meeting)

I've just collect my race pack today, my bib no. is 7004! ok buy this golden 4D number.the top is not as nice as i expected, but i feels comfy tho. Ok this is so so exciting, 7 more days to go to my first MARATHON!

And back in jeep course, driving everyday for me is bread and butter, getting so bored of it, LOL it's so fast right, tomrrow is my highway situation problem (play toy car), then my parking test follow by my driving test, all in one week. Ok i still need prayers for this, cause HSP passing rate is super low. But i don't want to fail. I can't afford to let my sat burn.

Tio ultimate pang seh la when i reach justine place, yl wl and derrick all left to their respectively desintination. Justine ah! must really plan proper, got nice movie also no use without good company rite. But the Raider of Lost Ark is good man, i would better than crystal skull, lol. I'm glad that edmund came to join me despite his piling assignments. else i would have to leave her place like the moment the rest leave. I bought donut factory, and it's still super nice IMO, esp double chocolate. That one really really UP on level one, but i look at myself, i may run often, but i'm like not getting any leaner either, gotta control my diet!! I'm so sorry JH for 'tricking' you to watch indiana jones. I wasn't expecting to watch that either, but since everybody flow that direction, lol.

Last thing to wrap this entry up, i quite enjoy CG this week, cause i'm glad new people are taking praise, worship and i'll love to comment once again that shimin, you did just great! i doubt i can lead this kind of praise the first time, haha. As for wl i think she stills lack confident, but her singing wise much better than sm, however she can afford to flow more in the spirit, it was a nice first attempt. I'm glad to be part of helping them in their first, awesome girls!

First up, thank you Edmund for lending me a phone, my phone is crap i know, but i really love it tho.

Finally i've completed my building fund and i'm happy about it, really i've made much sacrifice for a good cause, to build God a great house.

Anyway after svc yesterday, i went to my childhood friend christy teo swee cheng 21st. Felt kindda wierd cause i was there alone, but i'm glad a met a few fairsian like chanho, trisee, kai qing, had a good laugh reminiscing the past in secondary schools days.

Meet Ciao at DBl O with willie. Haha his girlfriend quite pretty sia, it was a good chill out session, not forgeting safra card members get in free before 10. moreover i get to chance to talk to some quite hot chics. quite suprise there was this girl who approach me randomly to strike a conversation. met some of my close polymate there as well, haha they're all now finishing OCS alr. Ciao has some nice friends too, as in they're nice to chat with.

Had a wonderful afternoon today with ed, cuz svc was really awesome. I felt that pst preach the msg better plus, the presence was much better. Oh did i say that i'll be back to JAMS soon! i think nothing much changes after 7 months. My kids remember me and gave a me a warmth hug, haha. Then i went to meet yulin, weilin and justine for lunch. we just kept yakking, i got great craving for donuts, had a good laugh over some random scenario. I wish could have a video cam to capture weilin's expression. I thought it was really funny, sometimes i feel that it is so much of a blessing to be able to express yourself, you laugh like as if there's no tomorrow. I'm glad that we talk. happy, yup really happy.

Then as usual i came home and did a 6km run. I really love my new pair of new balance 902, they're so light, and provide such stability in every stride, awesome! yea..

I'm so excited about tomorrow! cause I'm starting my jeep driving course. Feels like the first day i tried my class 2B, so anyway i spent the entire day at home devoted to the highway code book. i mean man! i forget lots of things man. I was given 350 questions to slowly do and revise, haha those who took basic theory will know it's not easy.

I ran 10km around my house area, i cover quite abit from my house to hillview and to jurong kechil and back by upp bukit timah road exiting cashew. Took around 53min, and suprisingly i'm not panting that badly! running at night is such a relaxing experience, i would recommend u guys to try it.

I'm in sort of a financial crisis now, as in my bank account is area close to hitting zero, tho I'm glad I've chosen to place God first, I'm done with my building fund, talking about a faithful steward. Anyway last sun was horrifying. I arrived at queenstown cc to play badminton with my cell mem and to find out that my chain suddenly got stuck at the sprocket, and my bike simply refuses to move. I've to shout for help and one nice guy came over to drag my bike to the side. I thank God that it didn't break down at the expressway man. So went around begging for tools, and upon closer inspection, the guy (so happen to be a mechanic) said that my gear has dropped, meaning to say putting the chain back would not have fix the problem. My heart sank, i called my brother for some help, and when i told him that I've ran out of cash, he scolded me like mad. Can you imagine if he found out that I gave that money away! Thank you Edmund for the temporary transfer $150 to me in such short notice, else i wouldn't have able to settle the bill. Gosh i'm turning 21 already and seriously i just simply refuse to ask my parents for money, cause i mean they're aging already, and i want to be filial to them, the last from my mind was to ever ask money from them. God i pray hard for a financial breakthrough in my life, I chose to believe that when one sow in tears, he'll reap in joy in due season, amen.

Now i just want a really good rest so that i won't dose off for tomorrow theory lesson SAF driving centre.

guess wat! i'm having my nights out! my friend were like all laughing at me when i said i want to head home straight, and they went to town to chill instead. Kind of lame rite, i mean u book out at 6 plus and have to be back at camp at 2230. Originally i was thinking of riding out, but there are darn too many officers hanging at the company line. I mean if they found out that i ride in secretly, manz hell break lose, confirm either extra or confinement. Just a background info, it's illegal to ride into camp without a valid vehicle pass which u have to go thru S1 branch to apply and you need to have a defensive riding licence, all of which i don't possess. Bleuhh..i'm just lazy la, haha.

SOC was really bad! i has so much difficulty carrying my SBO load running in the new route, my timing was a disgusting 9.58 like just pass. I used to hit like 8.58 back in SISPEC.

Now i'm training hard for SUNDOWN marathon, and i got ms Rhonda Tan running with me, yay! she's training rly hard as well, hopefully i'm able to make it through safely. I did my 10km on monday, time was around 55min. Quite siong, i wasn't panting, but my physical body is telling my leg not to run, now after 2 days, it's aching all over. Gosh, nonetheless i feels good to run distance, when you find that you're at ur brink of ur running, keep running and rely on the holyspirit, i prayed and it sure felt good that day. I mean, i just can't emphasize how important it is that everyone need God, cause if we walk by out own strength, we're bound to fail somehow. Ok time for dinner at home, looking forward to cell group this week!

I thought that this week svc with mrs cho is really good. Given the fact that she's like 70+ and she still sings and preach like in her 30s. Plus she's a professional musician, with a PHD in music, gosh..that's something to wow about. Anyway this week outing was good.

Fri with the fairsians, supper at almeen then go watch midnight shows till 4 am

Sat pre svc was good as well, had a good time teaching shu en, she's really improving fast and a good fellowship with wayne at bedok.

Sun my make up cell, which turns out to be a pm, which was good, then chill out a short while with yulin, derrick and wl, then night jamming with andri and edmund!

I'm really glad that alvin came to svc with ed this week, indeed through prayers and good follow up, people will eventually see light.

wayne said : "while people do not see a need to seek God, our purpose is to show the way to let them know that we all can't live without Him." i totally agree.

now gotta rush to book in!!

gosh..another week past in maju camp, and it's getting really bored in there. Well the only high key is Ippt, which suprisingly i didn't train at all and i still pass!!, haha. ok said thing is still the chin up, only managed 7! darn! is like all my other requirement all gold already except this, and my 2.4km run broke new best at 9.23. *clap clap* i guess every morning when we've nothing to do, we just do alot of pt to keep fit which i feel its great! moreover i just done a 8km run in 35min!! i'm quite amazed. which brings me to whether i should join a marathon. definitely i've to train. while other think that 'siao, why pay money to torture yourself' i think otherwise. I really felt a deep sense of satisfaction in running lately.

putting that aside, daily in camp for me is all PSP and sleep and eat and sleep. This kind of unproductive life is annoying me seriously.

last night, i went over to Ed house late night with Andri to jam, check out this band Bamboo in youtube, they have this a song hallelujah, very nice rock tunes serious, very alternative. what's more they're phillippino. Now i know that they are all really tallented musician over there, and the vocalist accent is amazing, i almost thought they're some hit band in US.

So to curb with the bordem issue in camp, i went over to John little EXPO sales to buy some food to eat. haha i just went in for 20 min, i spent $47, gosh! but largely goes to the FCUK top and perfume set. You guys should really check out the big box of chocolate by solen, they are freaking addictive. i bought whole box of bueno copy for like only $7+ which is really worth it, and i found out that they make snickers copies as well. Do not be fooled by the price, i believe they're made in turkey!

ok i really miss talking to her, don't know whether if i'm advoiding her or she's advoiding me. gotta start communicating somehow

This week in camp is kindda static... apart from playing psp, we attended a POI(protection of installation) crash course, which includes, scanning vehicle, personnel search, arrest using handcuff, stuff like that. gotta admit that i'm not really talented in using handcuff, i kept messing up, when it comes to preparation of the position of the cuff to cuff on the hand, not easy k. And you have to pin down your buddie after pushing them down on the floor locking them with your knees. Ouch!

I like jack johnson! his music is like so simple, plain and carries a very positive vibe in them, example UPSIDE DOWN and BETTER TOGETHER, they're really nice. I think i might play them for people's party this coming SUN at VIVOCITY evening time at a cafe downstairs GV. Cause basically there will be live unplugged performance, by eehemm yours truely and few other zai vocalist as well, so stay tune.

Easter is really awesome so far, esp the drama performance, i would say they've reach a new height. Imagine infusing modern day settings with old jeruselem settings, i thought the depicting of the death of Christ has been rather accurate, esp in the emotions, anxiety involved in the play. No wonder thousands of people flock down to expo the past 2 days to catch it, even i myself i've watched it twice. The only regret, i nv bring any friend! basically they pang seh me last min. But i seriously thought they will be tremendously blessed by the drama.

looking forward to the ATP shoot tomrrow, must get my markmanship badge and the $200 dangling carrot. yum yum.

SOT! now everyone seems to be going in, and i'm still not!! why why!!?? So wished i didn't have to serve ns.. now those who ORDed like ming jie, zen min, those who just finish a's like yulin, weilin, those studyin like peng, i'm so envious of them!! It'll really cool if bible school still have 5 months course in future. But anyway...i've just rot my time away with tim,wah keong, cass and vincent at esplanade playing my guitar. really nice to go there once in a while to chill out..take some time to enjoy, the sea breeze, playing some worship songs, pop music and chit chat. Felt wayy much better. self doubt gotten to me earlier, thinking i'm a poor communicator esp in remedying a cracked relationship.

on the other hand, i'm glad that i've been given the opportunity to lead a team of musician for upcoming event 30th march at vivo. I guess the most difficult for me right now is the selection of songs suitable for the vocalist. headache...

oh and i've to book in later like at 9pm! so early right, i think life is sispec maybe better.

sorry tim..should have told ya i'm sleepy, and ya i know it's super dangerous

Oh well it's been quite a while, haha so much for all the cobwebs accumulated here in cyber space, i've just complete a hectic training in BSLC!! so yea..i'm a corporal now, got posted to 6 SIR recee platoon. I would say it is a blessing in disguise, when i first recieved my posting, i was like shit..recee course is next toughest to guards, perhaps just a tough. exercise long walk 50+km topo on recee fbo, POW training, jungle survivals, and many interesting stuff the senior sgt shared with me. End of the day, what you get is a nice jungle hat! say goodbye to helmet, another plus point i'll for jeep driving lesson soon, so yay class 3 license and it's a 1 month stay out course! plus maju is like super near my place, haha. i'm glad, praise God!

Happy birthday PENG! i know ur like 24 this year already, hurry find a girl man, haha

well about the grave i've made, i've landed myself once again in sliding sands. ok doing what you've done before expecting same result, is madness. i know the theories, just that once it comes to practical, i stumble. Perhaps i was too rush? infatuated? i still have feeling for her tho.. lets just sticks as friends alright, gosh it just so tough. seriously is it wrong to be nice to a girl? although u may already know the outcome that she seriously doesn't like u at all, how dumb are u baoie. From my view, at least i know that i'm genuine, but i like you man, but on the other hand it also become tough to not irritate them, cuz obviously they'll just ignore you. End of the day, i'll hurt myself emotionally. i've seen my best friend Tim getting hurt so bad, i feel for him seriously, and i swear i won't land myself into that state. I still pray alot for him tho, for a open path; dude! wake up alright, i don't want to see u like this so wasted state.. ultimately in God i trust, one nice girl will surely come along the way.

my stand is this, it's never the girls fault.. blame it that guy aren't perfect enough for them

in a blink of an eye, 2 month past. many things happen but i guess i'm just to lazy to elaborate. Anyway i'm into my 11th week in BMT and life in army is good. I have so much fun in there, fiddling with M16, throw grenades, stuff that you will never get a chance to do outside.

Well my bike has been giving me some real headache lately, firstly the electrical circuit ran into some problem, causing light failure. ANd just LAST night, petrol is leaking somewhere. I parked my bike at vivo for dinner, next thing i know when i come back is a pool of reddish liquid. FReaking fed up! and now i riding in fear, thinking of a possiblity that my tank my explode should the petrol leak into the spark chamber.

Another thing that going through my mind is about this girl. Seriously i don't know what the problem with me either, i realise i like to slowly dily daly and wait and wait, until the feelings all dried up. I seirously irks me so much, when i try to put in effort to know someone, and end up i'm slowly beginning the get closed reply. I'm i too irritating? unapproachable? hard to talk to, or i've a 'qian bian' face. I've always been secure of myself, now i think twice. Disappointment do strike it's just how to i manage my expectation. Arhggg...fustrating.

Gosh i just missed my buddie so so much, and she's in Aust. I think really only she can understand me, like i can just chat about just anything, ANYthing! and still be cool, I wish for a person to come into my life, that i can truely not spend much time thinking over so many issue. that i can love, that i can understand, to hug and share a secret. But that's just a WISH, and wishes sometime are extremely hard to come through. I'm just so lost now...

Hey all! I've set up a online forum with my friend www.Livingoutloud.sg. Please do register as a user, and we can continue to build a small community of friends in this forum.

ok so basically i woke up super early today! like 8 which is rare for me. I normally wake up at 12pm.
Gosh i feel might not be able to adapt to waking up early in time!
I'll be going into the army tomorrow 1pm at tekong school 2
Been thinking of ways to increase traffic for my forums
It has been very fruitful meeting different groups of friends before my enlistment

Special thanks to my CG and some of e420 ppl for stayin late to take picture and spent precious time with me. It touch my heart DEEP DEEP.

A big thanks to my musicians for the nice tees, love the guitars imprints

To pam, thrish and tim for the memorable dinner. It is LENGENDARY, and we're gonna have it again soon, with the hosue LIVE bands!

Sixos for the nice dinner at holland last night, Good food, nice accompany as well! gosh i miss you guys, and esp those days back in China.

Ok i have quite a no. of things to settle now
Buy stuff for NS, slippers, hangers, toiletries
pack bag
tidy my room
clean up my 3 guitars
finish my unfinish business in office
collect pay :)

I think this will be the moment, probably won't blog till some time later.
Having a mix of feelings here and there, but i feel it's gonna be mentally challenging for me. Let hope that i'm able to handles my sergeant tortures well, hah. Emotionally wise, i'm trying very hard to put everything aside, who knows when i go in, perception towards certain people might change.

I watched Secrets yesterday with kexin, i tell u...the story line is kindda good i feel for a director who direct movie form the first time. It kept me glued my eyes to the screen, pretty actress, brilliant piano pieces, such a unusual twist of plot, it just kept me wonder how Jay Chou direct such movie like this. It reminded me of a movie i watch few years ago, turn left turn right which the show is divided into 2 portion, and it shows the 3rd person view of the series of events that happen between the 2 main character. I'm still rather amuse by the fact that how does one piano piece has the ability to twist time. Anyway great accompany, kexin just talk alot, hah but that's her and i accept that very fact long time ago. Went to see some trans at changi followed by a sumptous supper at the imfamous changi village nasi lemak and just chill out at orchard swenson with a topless 5. Just a great relaxing time of chill out, i wish everyday would be like so relaxed before i get into ARMY. Yes in around 2 weeks time man, but i can't wait to get in as well, caused everyone is IN there now already, and it feels weird that i'm still out. Some are even going to ORD... It was cell multiplication yesterday and it was great. No crying or whatsoever, just everyones smiling faces, thanks JH for the donuts once again, reall appreciate you queuing and buying the donuts for us. I think for the fact that we now multiply there alot of work to do ahead, even as e406 continues to scale greater height, living a LOL(livin' out loud) kind of lifestyle. And i need a find a replacement guitarist! before i gets in, AN zone is definitely short of experienced guitarist, and i thank God for my talent in the realm of playing guitar. ok for now off to watch HEROes

Had a pretty much fruitful day. It's AN zone youth prayermeeting! i guess it's my first time playing the guitar for so long! really... from 6pm - 10pm, try that! but anyway thank God for guiding me through the whole prayer meeting safely. It's extremely tough due to last minute changes, and unfamiliar worship song, it's almost killed me. Plus my battery died out on me so sudden, then i guess everyone must be wondering what's going on. I guess everyone is fire up and ready for BREAKAWAY, the next big thing by LivinOutLoud productions, and gosh, YES we're living out loud. Gotta say i never seen my zone people so happening, really!!

Yesterday i had a extremely fruitful time with my cool guitar teacher ALVIN. YES i'm learning guitar again! this time i'm moving onto jazz. Gosh it was overloading for me, DIATONIC patterns, Appregiated scales, TSTTTST, Natural minor and major scales, 2-5-1 progression. It's sure tough, but i know i'm moving up to deeper stuff and i'm glad! Cause it just mean God can use me more to bless other. My cg, future congregation, the public in future and many more. Music music music! i'm so in love with it, he he. For aspiring musician, there are no short cuts, it's all freggin hard work, but at the end of the day, it's all worth it!

HEY all!! i'm back from a 3D2N trip to KL and it sure was really awesome. I have my good buddy musician friend EDMUND there with me and i'm glad!

I tink the last time i visited KL was way back in my secondary 2 days,when i was 14 i guess and now 6 years later, i backpacked to check out the place. Was initially looking for thrilling ride and i opt for SUNWAY which i tot their ride got super kick but i was wrong. Ended up my impromtu stop at Cosmo world at berjaya Time Square was even better. The roller coaster there is really POWER! 360 roundabout turn, flips, zero gravity falls all send the faint hearted ones down their grave. The mega mall is like 7 storey high! packed full with retail shop and i regreted not bringing enough money over there to shop my hearts out. I guess i was very budget concious when i'm over there, cuz i ate good food as well, and it ain't THAT cheap. Plus i have to get some mini gifts for my friend and all, I was really budget constrain!! But yea the trip is fruitful and it helps my too soothe my mood a little, after all the hectic tuition related job stuff. Even when i'm over there, i can't escape the call of aunties calling me asking for tutor confirmation and payment matter, gosh!! oh yea....a must go for all shoppers, please visit KL petaling street, it's their chinatown and you can get lots of nice clothing at really good price if you know how to bargain, seirous! i got myself 4 tops!! in this trip, a good mix of different style, retro, ah pek polo, guitars and jap casual. nothing less, hah. I would reccommend all in future to just backpack, don't book any hotel and sleep in inns which is way cheaper so that you could shop for more yea? here are few photo in my trip...

sushi conveyor belt! k good food


edmund damn 'excited' at the conyon ride

eh my specialty store leh

hah me in canyon ride as well!

and I just love diggin his/her nose

Da crazy ride!

Chinatown!

it was a blast last night... what happen was there is this series of chain event that took place from 5+ till 5 in the morning!!

First was friday GEEKY cell, errrr i sure look geeky enough, hah. The msg livin out loud was really relevant to me now, i believe it should be the same for all student studyin out there. Esp next sun is the actual performance already! So excited, first time given a opporunity to perform at such hot spot. I tink more to that it's the cause we're performing for. So if you want to help support boy's town artistic programme, pls drop by heeren on the 29th 9pm. Gosh junior is leaving already! after 3 weeks of stay over here attending our cg, i'm really glad i've met him. Surely he is one guy who has huge a huge music library! He's like that kind who listen to my chemical romance way before they even famous, so u can imagine..when he told me about listening to depapepe and whitestripes, well you guys u should listen to their song man! nice one bro, respect for a guy who is 18 and yet me who is a musician barely step out my comfort zone to listen to more originals.

Then after CG and fellowshiping with DURIANS! i rush straight to MINDS at princep to meet my colleague. I was ultra dupa late, but well we have our fare portion of fun! yay..bang. I have the privilege of explaning the rule of the game after the waiter's failed attempt at getting my freinds to understand the game, and yea no doubt this is fun! i first time see everyone so high, shouting and screaming inside a cafe! then we proceed to PUNKbar at ms to support adrain(my sales manager). Well he basically manage this group of THai band Ipzone and they sure are good, extremely tight. Especially the bassist and they are very polite as well! i was thinking it sure must be tough for them to earn a living in singapore and daily they work and play music till 3am! GOSH...and their energy on stage are pulsating onto the crowd. Very tired after everything, i proceed onto supper with tim at ameen as usual with tim, and the uncle cheated us to buy a $3.50 maggie goreng! basically he's say it's special yesterday because of the extra ingredient, and after it arrive on our table, ewwwww. it's like they took the remnant of food from garbage dump, put it back onto the stove, add lots of spices to cover the smell and resell to customer! eeeeeeeeee...make no mistake, Ameen is a very good place for night chill out, they have good prata, but pls! don't buy their maggie goreng... okie tired as i am i finally head home at 5am. hoo haa...gonna see junior off in airport soon :(

woo hoo hoo...ok i've been spending like mad.

I bought
NIkon D70s from my brother
Gibson SG from a softies
PS2 with Drummania controller and guitar heroes guitar

but i believe big spending comes when u earn that much!

My buddies is going oversea soon..boo hoo, i will really miss her so so much :(

Ok my band DeStatic will be performing on 29th july at cineleisure afternoon, plspls do come see see support k!! haha

ok that's it for summary

okok...i'm like MIA in this blog, but i still pop by to listen to the song which i love it so much, but i guess for you guys, abit sian rite? i'm trying to work on new materials with my current band, if all things falls well, ya should be nice, heh. Anyway i'm going to audtion for the annual tapestry charity gig, basically if my band got in, we will play by the street along orchard road, pretty cool eh? anyway all proceeds goes to boys home. tc

oh ho ho........leaving for the airport now! be back in 7th april, don't miss me too much :)

alright, after 2 days break from the interesting bonding camp in punggol, i'm all charge up again! and yea got many stuff i've got to buy, i just reealise how much i spent on these few days.


Cotton pullover - $20 Body shop 3 in 1 body,shampoo, face cleanser - $20 motorcycle 2t engine oil - $12 guitar strings - $21 ziplog bags and multiplug for china use - $ 10 vitamin c - $10 haircut $15 season parking $15 and plus i recently settled some fine which amount to $16, i mean there is a constant outflow man...gosh why are there so many money stuff to settle. Building fund is coming to an end, and i'm glad i'm still a faithful servant of God. One last lap and it's gonna be over. Not forgeting the countless of blessing i've got throught this building fund period. So here is a picture of my kite making session in camp. The one flying in the sky is what i did, flew by Fiona, a yr 2 BA student.








aiya i know the pic abit small





Oh ya...i tink i missed posting a entry on my mustafa outing late night with kexin after mosaic.


There are tons of stuff to blog about that, but 1 thing to summarise it all, mustafa can really keep you entertained for hours just by walking in there. i mean i got my bike stuff there, foods, apparels, practically anything you want, it can be found there la, hehe... Then in the wee hours of the night, we went bonkers, going to children department to have some costume party...





ah ha see, crazy de....ok better go restring my guitar now before cell groups starts. Hmm...wondering if Rhonda has recovered from her chicky pox?

Hey hey... Guess where i am now, I'm in a dead forgotten land in Punggol! some super ultra big chalet with internet access, how cool is that!? but anyway i'm here for a retreat with my serve china team, and preparing for the upcoming event, going to Suzhou China!! how fun is that sia... and more than that, i'll bring my guitar along there too sing to the kids and i'll be playing old hits like yue liang dai biao wo de xin, tian mi mi, pen you and many many more. Apparently i just realise my ears are becoming much more sensitve and in fact most sing which i can sing, i probably is about to figure out the chords pretty fast. Thanks God for such wonderful talent. Past few night at mosiac festival has really widen my horizon for latin funk numbers as well as soul music. Last tues really want to commend on soul circle, for bring down the house, and man they were really groovy. 2 night ago, there was beat farm, with 2 power vocalist playing some latino/funk/jazz kind of number. Gosh i love music!!!

why why why!!!! i can't comprehend why my this sem GPA is 2.43!!! i score a blardy C for SMM which i really studied like mad as well as for my BB. Retail management was heavily pulled down by my peer assessment and i still managed a B, this means i could have gotten an A for that. But of all whY??? Now it shows that my cumulative GPA is like 2.37!!!hiaz........why why why, i think i , might have created a bad impression among my lecturer, my dreams of getting into local U is shattered at this very moment.................

So....tomrrow my result will be releasing...and yea this time round, i'm not hoping, but i know it'll be good, cause i know that my God is bigger than all my result or whatsoever. But defnitely, i got this feeling i'll do better than last sem again ;)

Zoomanji was a hit! and i got on pretty well with my fellow team 8 members. Without them, i doubt the whole thing would be fun. At the same time, i got to know few fellow 87 poly grad which i never see them in sch of BA before one. I'm like so aooooooo but nevermind it's fun.

So i'm also about to leave for CHINA soon. On the 25th of march, we heading for su zhou to visit boai orphanages and school for special children. Thought that it would be a eye opener for me, as well as being in sync with pastor message on becoming a philanthrophist(doing good works to people) Finally i'm putting my thoughts into action!

I am so sorry about yesterday...to the whole cell group. I felt that i was dragging the whole atmosphere. Everyone is trying hard to sing that song but i failed. For that short moment, i was totally tone deaf and i catch the tune for you guys. I believe this is what the devil want to see... but if u think that i'm gonna remain sad, i'm not! i'm gonna train so much hard, pray even more so that i can pull down the prescence of God even more, I will.. I was one told, in the world there are ups and downs, bt in God, there is only high and higher! gonna strife for excellence

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL!!!

This year gonna be great.

God has greater plan for us all

Stay cheerie!!

and i grad liao!!! no more ngee ann poly, muahahah!!! DARN happy sia

was out with wayne rhonda and ching feng at crazy chinatown. Seriously will never consider to go back again. Sqeeze like mad lar... but i love that stuff your bag with everything marketing. Lol, i bought 2 big packs of tidbits for only $5. Muahah...

so tomrrow is D-day..i dunno..but i have faith that God will carry me thru. It's gonna be challenging, but its gonna be great. So v-day coming liao, what are u guys going to do? i have a date with my books! lol

Me and my life =)

4 more days to exams....i'm so darn stressed. After that, it makrs the end of my poly life, and HELLO National service. Neway, today went to sit a brand new sppedboat built by DAMEN shipyard and their were built for a turkish client. It cost a whooping $10 million, cool huh? How i got in? cuz i was just there to pass food around for the guest, and everything was pretty much easy. plus guess wat, for this short 4 hours, i am paid $50. Just that simple. :)

oh dang....i failed my napfa, i got a bronze, all because of the stupid pull up. I did 3 cheating one...not bad for a start. And now i'm aching all over. First time in my life, i jumped 222cm for standing board, ah ha break thru, first time i ran 9.7 seconds for shuttle run, another brakthru, except for 2.4 i falter, did only a miserable 11.30, shucks...i don't wanna enter NS 1 month early!!



I quite like this sunglasses, tried it at aldo, habourfront. Kelly encouraged me to tried it. Last Sunday i went to sentosa to work, to tend game stall booth by the beach, slack and the pay is pretty alright. But it's fun!! meet 3 new friend, AN zone one, i never tot they existed until that day, oppsss....speaking of being close to my zone people.

Me and my life =)

i love today cell group...it was good. God was good too..as always, more important knowledge has been imparted upon me. Darn...i should really yearn for more knowledge. As I reflect upon myself, thinking should i really go for it? My result is like ****...but i'm still gonna try anyway. Oh sometimes when thing changes, it can't be undone again..i wished for another chance to just talk

A bloody affair.

This is my toes you are looking at right now. Gotten injury while shifting things in my brother house, cuz he's moving to a new bigger home. Ouch!!!

Neway today dinner to bid sharon farewell was really good. She felt very touch from what i see. Glad to see her grow so much closer to us after joining us for the past one year. Man i really gonna miss her, but anyway i went on a shopping spree!!! bought 2 t-shirt, 1 levi's shirt, 1 converse all stars and that' about it, spend around 80+. But it's all worth it. I like know the uncle from the shops i got most of my good from, and he's offering me some really good price down here. oh anyway...many many projects are piling up!!how how?? SMM proj 2, BB group project, IB game presentation, ISM presentation, BPC presentation, BPC individual assignment and WISP thired upcoming project. Gosh less than 2 months to graduation and out lecturer are stuffing us up like a pig!! stupid...

Me and my life =)

The best way to keep urself happy is to forget the unhappy memory and choose to remember the good things. Happiness is a choice, and only you can make urself happy. Don't let ur circumstances determine where you are heading, be the head and not the tail. You have your own destiny to control. That's why Baoie is now a happy person!!! Cuz i made the CHOICE. For those who dislike me or whatsoever, i thinks that's really too bad, cuz you don't know the real me, i mean...gosh i really always try my best to please everyone if i remember. I don't expect much from others, be the least, is pls respect me, thank you... cheers, may the joy of the Lord that i have be wid you all :)

Christmas service is really great the past 2 day, i mean, drama is really awesome, professional choir, nice live played christmas carol, and the heartwarming candlelight segment. I'm really excited, tho i've watch it 3 times already, cuz i'm bringing my mum and sis to service tomrrow!!! it's their first time, and i'm really glad that they are willing to come after much persuasion. I realise life is much similar to a see-saw. It involve opportunity cosr, while one area prosper, somehow other area dampen. I don't if i've done the right thing to write that long email to her, but like william hung said, i've done my best and i'm satisfied with what i've done. Now back to xmas mood, woo hoo...countdown is really fun today at yuling house i tot. Thanks to all cell members who kept me accompanied, and most important to Him who gave his ONLY SON to be born on earth so that we can all celebrate this day, the true significance of xmas. Here is santa BAO, wishing you all a merry merry christmas!!

Me and my life =)

Alright guys..very sorry for not updating.

1) i just celebrated my 19th bdae!! with my cell and my buddie!!! ok yea..quite a simple one. When was birthday not a simple on for me? after all i just lead a simple life, doing extraodinary things for God!!

2) Oh...i bought a x1950pro graphics cards and i really like it, all my games now look eye candy. more importantly i feel it's really money well spent.

3) i'm going to CHINA!!! it's community service trip organise by sch of BA. But dang, hell load of bonding session before the actual trip, to make us all a more effective volunteer when i'm over there, like......... duno shld i even go for their activities, or else they treaten to kick me out, boo hoo.

4) Christmas is coming!!! A time where people can experience the love of Christ in a tangible way, i would like to extend my invitation to invite anyone one whom i know to my church xmas event!!! i tot it'll be awesome for you to make new freinds, and enjoy a good time of fellowship as well! 23,24,25 of dec. OK? so i extend my invitation to you!!! to join me

5) Really want to thank those people who msg me during my bdae, i think got quite abit, altho you guys are not here physically, but i feel it's really the thoughts that count, thank you all so much.

to Her.....
Even tho you don't talk to me, i'm still happy to see you enjoy yourself every now and then. Of course it's bonus to be able to spend some time with you, but yea i'm not expecting much alr, wen rui taught me to by easily satisfied.

Even tho you never say anything, i know that you still treat me as a friend.

Even tho you never spell it out, i know that this is to prevent me from falling deeper in misunderstanding

Even tho...........hiaz, i really shld just forget about it

Of course it's bonus to be able to spend some time with you, but yea i'm not expecting much alr, wen rui taught me to by easily satisfied. I believe this is something that only time can heal, until you are ready to talk to me. Till then, we shld just focus on more important stuff coming right up, xmas! Cheeros, in God, all things will turn out good for those who love Him!

hey hey, just managed to crawl out of my bed. When to cartel to celebrate pei fen's belated birthday. Well i hope that she enjoyed the meal. Really to me, she's more like freind rather than a leader, always tot that she's the most understanding person, like as when when require, she encourages all her team members, all the time effort sown into the usher ministry. I'm glad to have her as my leader, my freind, someone whom i can share with. I know you are going thru alot of exams stress, be praying for you in this times, once again happy belated 21st.....on the other note, there is another person i've been praying for exam. another person taking exam. I guess, first sem has been tough for her? i just realise i've never talk to her for sometime. This space btw us like widening at accelerated rate, feeling ain't good... but yea this kind of thing it's never about me. Well if u r more comfortable not talking to me, i would rather u do that... I don't want to cause anymore ackwardness btw us anymore..just pure freinds alirght. ah ha, i bet she wouldn't be even reading my blog anyway. My emotion are tired, emotional tank running low, who is gonna be the one who top up for me? I guess Christ is the answer to why i'm sustaining right now, thank you Lord.

it certainly feels awesome to own my own bike at a tender age of 18++haha, the strong wind that blew straight onto my face at 90km/h. Tested the limit, i believe it has potential to hit 120km/h but i dare not try. Fixed a tiny bit of this and that, rear brake piston, new 42L box, and new batt which was flat when the owner pass to me. Now everything is so convenient. I can just go anywhere i want to, without any restriction. Dang...now i'm running really low on cash, stupid pizza owe me i think close to 400 already, felt that i'm like a free labour?? goodness...they take 1 month to process the employee info in the main system, and they can only bank in automatically on either the 22 or 7th of each month. It's getting real busy in sch, roadshow coming up on 21-23 nov in NP orchard road....PLS!! pop by my store and say hi k? i brought in quite a few nice tops for guys, and ALOT of female stuff...

here i am, at an unearthly hour blogging... can't seems to sleep. Lives been great, cuz i'm getting my bike on monday!!!!muaahah, it's a phantom TA150, it's kindda old, 7 years old alr, but it's cheap and nice looking too. Owner leaving to new zealand, so have to clear fast, and i tot since i can afford it, must well buy it before it's gone. So i bought the bike for $750, whereas in the market, it's selling aorund $1000 at least. Including my 3rd party insurance, it cost me a additional $376!!! ouch, but LTA law, got to follow. I look forward to a time of no time wastage, no us waiting, travelling to anywhere i want kind of life next week. Muahah, i've sow in my best, and didn't expect this suprise harvest to come in so quickly, hehe. Praise God!!! Now Lord, show me more new freinds that i can reach out to...hehe, happy happy

ok...now the dark clouds are gone. Maybe there isn't any dark cloud, i guess my expectation of that person was too high. I learnt to be content at small little things. Neway...ARISE AND BUILD 2006 is coming up next week. So exciting. To see everyone going to sow INTO the kingdom to build God a great house IN the marketplace FOR the marketplace to PENATRATE into the marketplace. This is really awesome. For those who don't know, I pass my 2B license which mean a whole big deal to me. Serious. So i started my pizza delivery job yesterday at bukit batok pizza hut. The wave125 is really easy to ride, i'm getting a hang of it. Getting used to the harsh unsafe road condition out there. My parents are really worried bout me, so I don't think i'm gonna work there for long. But i really want to get a bike, it will be so much convenient to me. The insurance cost is another killer. Imagine $360 for a p plate holder, my goodness. I'm just on the lookout for cheap bike, at the same time earn little extra bucks to sow into the building fund. Woo Hoo

I tink i am obessessed with someone. That someone seems to be pullling away from me. Things just not going the way it suppose to be, still i trust in Him. Time for me to step back, look at the whole picture, and focus on the RIGHT things. Nonetheless, i still regard you as my good friend, how about you??

One thing i really want to thank God for now is really the tremendous amount of blessing i recieve. One moment, i'm really super broke, even have difficulty fulfilling my tithe. Next moment, Andrew finish paying me this month music lesson, ke xin paid also paid me for her new com. Still got some cash with CG and Rachael. Ah ha, just realise i invested in alot debtor. I realise God has been using me in many way this few weeks. Encuraging freinds who are down, challenging those cell members who are luke warm, opportunity to rise up new potential cell group guitarist. Somehow the more i serve, more respoinsibilty is added unto me. I'm glad that all these while i've rise up to the occasion. I'm glad that the letter i written for Rhonda has encourage her. Same as the letter i wrote for Wayne. Amazing to see that my blessing is pour out off me, and use to bless others at the same time. God is good, and i really want to thank him for my amazing cell group these 6 months. We've been through explonential growth, with the hardwork and effort of every single one. Cheeros and you guys rock!!

music: Mirror mirror - M2M
mood: ecstatic

OH yea!!! freaking happy today, why?? I PASS MY FINAL EVALUATION for my CLASS 2B. Really want to thank God for this, cuz really without Him, don't think i'll make it at one go. The 8.01 touted as the most difficult module to pass, i got through it in one go!!! yes!!! 14 points, i hope u guys can feel the excitement that i'm feeling even as i'm typying this down. Neway, back to reality, my door to doors sales starts tomrrow. Hiaz..good and bad, Good - i can earn extra bucks Bad - Cell group and service to be compromise, manz....i hate that, God pls help me find a way to break thru. Just wanna put in first in EVERYTHING that i do. This friday is gonna be the mooncake fest! I ask constance and zen to join us. I'm pretty sure they'll enjoy it. While i'll be at bukit panhjang, knocking doors, trying to sell the starhub services. To refresher by Dennis is awesome, but i tot it's abit repeatative. No doubt there is chunk load of promos for us to remember.



manz....i'm missing my IMF freinds. The cute girl over there, ah ha. That's siew lin and magg. Anyway today went with other IMF friend to Kster. Was there quite late, cuz was having briefing in sch. The ppl there super kiam one. keep forcing me to buy drink, otherwise i have to leave the premise. Lol, in the end i still stay for an hours plus or so. Somehow figure i can't sing for nuts. ALl those Karokae song are in super high key one la. Really not for normal ppl vocals. I really question why the songs in MTV must be sung so high. Maybe that's why they are unique. Andrea has great vocals, perfectly in key. whereas me, who is NOT tonedeaf have difficulty singing BEN XIAO HAI. The way andy lau sing ar is so tough, Dang. Blame it on my poor unpolish vocals. I really wished i could sing, so that i cna at least front my defunct band, REVO. speaking of that, i'm missing them. 2 left, which i GREATLY miss. Jag turn fulltime in Yamaha, and Silas busy with A's. I'm so in the moods of writing songs, and can't wait for the opporunity that will given to us in time to come. Guess everything works in season. A season for different kinds thing, Just excactly the way God works. I know why i'm going thru it, and i never doubt it. ok Just happy for now...alway keep myself cheerie, hehe!! show you guys something cute



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wooosh...i'm so tired. Just got home from Constance grandma wake at ubi. It was so late cuz most of us are waiting for wayne, who got lost at ubi area and Ivan have to drive to play cat and mouse with him. lol. But i tot it was really good, to accompany our freinds in times of need. Otherwise I tot Constance would be super bored. We got to know each other better at least. Rhon was there too to Tong with us. Quite suprise that she can actually stay up until so late, it's always great to have her as accompany too. Not because of her stoness, but her prescence always tense to lighten the mood. Thanks Rhon. I wrote her a letter, trying to press in her life? WHY?? seriously i just wan to get to know her better...Hopefuly this will lead to something fruitful in future. Just like pressing in Wayne life, just looking back, man..i feel i've grown so much. I hope to be of influence to someone, the way i talk, the kind of stuff that i share, the correct people that i touch in times of need. Holy spirit, i pray for a sharper discernment, as and when, i hope that i'll be just there for my freinds and family. I like a girl. But i'm just gonna trust in the Lord, focus in him and see how he take me to a place that i can never thought or imagine. Ultimately, i'm still too young for a relationship huh? Maturity comes with wisdom. Read this from Josh Harris 'boy meet girl' very true. If just let my emotion run wild, without constraining it with my head, guess i'll go bonkers by now... ok there so many things i want to say, but i forget. i will do my best to blog frequently from now on..Baoie outz.

Heyy.... i'm super dupa super dupa tired. My class 2e chalet just ended, from 27-29. Man i miss them. Crazy fun jamming with jireh, taking photos at the bbq, crapping and talking in mahjong session and stuff. I was all good, altho i ran into budget deficit. we had so much fun even tough my time with them is so short. Cuz i got the IMF training to attend. Training the past 2 days was a real blast. I can't imagine the kind of prepration they put into making this event possible. Especially when i look at the architecture of the temp meeting room. Looks like those permanent one. I believe there are like close to thousands of meeting room for the delegates that are coming from 184 countries. I love the training, why?? they feed us like pig!!, haha really got alot to eat. Breakfast tea, lunch and afternoon tea. Each got it's own unique sets of food. Win liao...i see my stomach growing :P and after the training today, i went to my squash CCA student excellence award ceremony, i got a half colour award. Cuz the men team did well last sem! yea!! neway, got there buffet again. I really have been eating alot the past 2 days. okok i really KO liao...nitezz

hey hey....real apologies, i'm like so busy with my integrated presentation la...just managed to complete my TVC only..oh yea

PART 2
alirght... we had so much fun in the rush hour, dang i forget wat happen. oh ya...we had a pretty 'awesome' lunch, Yanling has nicely packed for us sushi which she made herself, *clap clap and also the fried rice with one fish cake...lol that's so lame. She was telling me how excited to negotiate with the uncle for one pathetic fish cake...but yea sis, nonetheless great job over there. Next game was inter group game, where we have to travel to 3 major landmark in in sentosa, namely merlion, palawan beach and siloso. In the midst of the game, there is photohunt, where there is a list of task for us to accomplish in the midst travelling from pt A to pt B. One stupid task...find a man with orange speedos. Rhon tot of that one..felt like wacking her sia. Oh ya our group keep using her cheers she taught us. Goes like this:
I got a finger it's hot, it can't be stop
I got a finger it's hot, it can't be stop
I've got a front dig back ouch! can't be stop
I've got a front dig back ouch! can't be stop
I've got a finger...(turn behind dig nose)
Ang GONG GONG!! haha well done..it was crazy.
Over at merlion we play one really lame game. Passing rubber band and polo sweet with toothpick. It's kindda gross when the guy have to pick up the sweet with their mouth from a girl's feet. Talking about being equal, lol. So yea my team won, yay!! then we went palawan challenge the cabbage ball. Haha, the ball end up kiam chai(salted cabbage), esp when the sisters kept droping the ball onto that sand, grrrr. I was tinking, what if the ball hit someones head...i tink surely gone case, it is really hard like a rock la! Then there was tarzan jane gorilla at palawan. I tot this game kindda sian, only fun part is we got the chance to be soak. Kudos to jennifer who waited so patiently for the laggin team to reach the station. 2 team sat in one straight line facing the sea, move sideways towards centre and doing action, tazan win gorilla, gorilla win jane, jane win tarzan and this goes on. Ha ha..our team manage to win the 2nd round without losing a single of my members! lol..then we chiong back to siloso for war game. 3000 packs of bombag made in a short span of 20 min, amazing huh.We all threw like nobodies business. The idea is for the house IC to reach oppsing teams base without getting wet...haha as if it's possible. Wayne was totally dreach by the time he reach the other side. Other objective is to destroy the flag which is ICs are holding. muahahaha Giddeon was heavily under fire by my team of defender, we just wack. Literaly wack, hit head, his neck, her bods, and the flag on his hand. But wayne one was first to go, haha cui(gone) liao.. it really fun to meet a bunch of new ppl, from my own zone, as well as new freind! like joel, hui chun, say chong. Many la....haha okok i better be back at project! tata

yo yo wassup yo!! Ecstasy was such a blast. Our cell hit a total of 30 people, 17 freinds. Got to know many people, and more importantly i'm sure they had fun. Planning this whole thing wasn't a easy task, much recee involve, as well as few sleepless night, but i thought, it is all worth it, for all the new freind that come, that they mayb know that, we ppl each are a bunch of loving garang bunch yeah!! i love my cell members.
on the 30th, i woke up at 6 am but dose off almost immediately. But thank God for recurring alarm function, i drag my heavy body up and ring rhon. Haha she slept early the previous night la. She was preparing the clues and end up she went to bed first, and only woke up at 4am to complete, well done girl.. So yea, i chiong to HB to stone there for a while first, bought pancake at mac and read Joshua Harris old book, kiss dating goodbye. Man..i tot this book is awesome!! the author is not afraid to tell u, yes u are not doing it the correct way, the God way. Not trying to be liberal here, but look at how many youngster handle themselves! they go steady too early, got way past their physical boundaries, broke up..heart ache. This book really teaches us how can we have a healthy relationship with our friends and pursue true love, with purity, faith and hope. Result? long lasting relationship, blissful marriage. okok fast forward, we meet up with all the EGL at HB mrt at 10 am. Briefing conducted by wayne before we met up with my group members and head off to sentosa. Advance party is there around 7.00am!! consist of lizhen, rhonda, wen rui and adam. Clap clap, u guys did a awesome job in the preparation. New friends in my team include say chong, kee chun and joel. We're in the most man team, muahahah. Rush hour, consist of 12 game station located close to each other. Must complete each task in each station in the given time of 1 hour. I love rhon station most. Haha, cuz she gave the most point. We buried wen rui deep within the sand and choke him!! sadist, is just that we got to cover him with sand before the shoreline wash them off, kindda challenging, but it was awesome. Adam gave a burger bonus! for rubbing sand onto wayn'e back. haha, you got to see how funny wayne reaction was...totally hilarious. alright i shall continue tonight with a part 2, off to dinner with wen rui and est first. ciao!

LALALA!!! haha, i'm back after like another 2 months? As promised, i'll blog once every 2 months. OH yea...later going to watch ladies in the water, got this pair of free tickets from my sista. Finally got the opportunity to drag my buddy, RACH out..goodness, make her watch horror movie is super dupa hard la. Initially was rhon one, then end up she want to work. not that she fang fei ji, cuz i know she kindda need the finances, so ya i dun her to waste her precious time watching a stupid movie wid me :p

Ecstasy is coming and i'm really excited, cuz i'm one of the organiser. Gotta admit it's really tough, but it's worth it for our friends. Btw this is a pure fun, exciting session organised by a few cell group. Happen that i'm involve in the inter group games planning. Went to Sentosa last SUN with rhon and ester to receee. Man...it was quite fun la, cuz i was the retarded guy. But it was good, we walked till we drop, scouting for venue for our games. We're going to play a total of 16 wacky game!! within the time frame of maybe 6 hours? there is the crazy madness photo session as well, took so many pic, not say really wacky, but real funny. With the ever blur rhon with young ester and retard pow, crazy combination!

Reality hits hard now...exams gonna come crushing down upon me in 3 weeks. Excited sia...hur hur, time just zoom pass ever since this sem start. I felt that this is one of the worst sem so far, cuz my class ar..goodness, forever seperated by a layer of invisible wall. What am i doing!! as a class CEO, not even a single bit of influence, except goofing around in tutorials, making a fool out of myself. I'll add in pictures later, gotta rush to meet Rach in orchard liao, ciao!

Ho ho ho...i'm like back after a very long break...
Please don't frequent my blog from now on, cuz i barely find time to update them, or should i jus say lazy.

neway, i just came home from a night of soccer at benjamin's place. Italy 2 Ghana 0. Ghana had much scoring opportunity but they technique abit kayu i feel. Italy is lightning fast, defence close up supper quickly. Quite exciting match i feel, as compare to the red cross vs paraguay, hiaz...

so right now, i'm on a fast today, together wid my cell group. So why fast, cuz of many things that's happening in church.

1) Dipping in service atmosphere
2) For many new freinds who came for our cell
3) this friday upcoming combine cell event
4) our own spiritual life

i believe God is gonna carry accross to another level real soon. Cuz i know when we try so hard to populate heaven, the devil always attack. But as pillar in Christ, we don't give in so easily. ShooO!!! in Jesus name.. frankly i'm having quite a hard time cooping wid my financial planning course and it's like tomrrow la. Each lectures are like super compress and they ain't easy at all. All the theory stuff like computation of taxes in singapore, risk management, insurance policies, derievatives, stocks exchange, forex, retirement planning, estate planning(when u die)..so basically a geis of what financial planner does. Felt that i have benefit much from this course in terms of my awareness in these areas. That i may put it to good use in the Marketplace to shine for Christ! oh yea, pray hard that i can pull thru my mock exams.

And over here to my dear cell member rhonda, that she may PULL THRU in her TP tomrrow!! haha when ur done, instead of seeing u home, maybe U can see me home, lol. cheeros