DO you believe in fate?

What i've plan for 2 weeks end up in total nothing.

I've no idea why i bother to recee the ground, wash my helmet, it's just suppose to be a simple farewell dinner for her.

Somehow.. something just crop up

I think no point in marking the calendar, 29th is a day i'll remember.

Just not fated..

well today is battalion anniversay off day at safra Yishun. It means off for half a day la! haha.. early in the morning at 7am i've to report in, i drag myself up cause i was still super sleepy. Had a good time of bowling with my bunkmates, esp those crazy changing of names while bowling like CHEEKOK, TYCO KIA, CHARLIE BRAVO KILO, KOH SOON LI, LOGAN, NIGELLA, AH PUI SEOW, TAN KOK SAI, man! all these bring back funny memories things that happen in army. anw i did say i was sleepy so you see, the previous night i had supper with wayne, cheesy and sen min near bugis there.

But last night was Arty farty night for me. Went to this place to watch local short films where wayne found through his fass friends, and i tot wow. I really love this place, and it might possibly well be my next secret hide-out. Ok i can't reveal this place, cuz i made pact with wayne not to divulge the location. Ok why this place is so special, because firstly it's really quiet, so esp when you want to have some peace of mind away from stressful work environment, it's really helpful. 2nd, you can do few things, like just go there for a stroll to admire the retro architecture, interesting signboards, nice lunch out or catch short films! And i rly mean that the staff over there are really friendly.

i've felt quite disappointed lately, because of the way i feel my friends taking me for granted. Example, in the area of time. Because i think that now when in army, time has become something of great importance to me and i made the decision to be a good steward of time, by being on time. anw i ended waiting for a group of friends for around an hour! after meeting time..and what i really can't stand is the fact that they didn't respect my value of time. Esp because of all the sacrifices i made to push my schedules aside just to be on time. Be a faithful steward of time, because you never know when your next big business opportunity comes, and imagine you being just a minute late, it's over. Ok there are also another instance when someone comes into my mind, and i decide to spend my nights maybe to meet up to chill, build up relationship, and there are those whom i really feel they just don't give a damn kind of attitude. No replies, no call back despite sometimes repeated messages or call. Ok i'm not desperate, at least respect friendship that has been forge in the past. Even if you don't even feel like meeting up, i mean it's a good manner to even reply, not leave somebody hanging down there in the air. I'm not here to pinpoint anyones, but just sharing some of thoughts that ran through my minds the past few days. Irritating...

Alright another person i want to thank also is Edmund. Thank God for him, who come to save me like almost immediately when i text him when i told him my bike died out somewhere near my house. Stupid me forget to pump petrol and left frantic and lost for a spur moment.

I'm glad i still went over to his place to him up after that for LOUD nightout, eventhough he almost last minute pang seh me. Everything's really rah rah last night, all where like woooo so hype up. Of course it really nice to see so many new faces. But more to that, it's the passion for the Lord that's bringing e406 to greater heights!

Ok last week i miss out on a important entry so here it goes..




This is my dad, and we had a wonderful ba kut teh session together on fathers day together with my family which include, my elder brother paul and sis-in-law vivi, my elder sister sharon and my bro-in-law jeffrey, my mum and baby niece joelle! Anyway i just want to reserve this small space to thank my earthly father. Truely I feel that God has bless me with this wonderful dad, who despite facing many problems, fought through daily to provide for the family, he's our pillar of strength, he may not say it but i know that love my mum and all his children. I appreciate all the things he's done to make me happy when i was younger, which was satisfied through material pessession and now that i've grown up, i thank him for trusting me with freedoms some youth may not have at my age. I've become who I am today, because he has taught me my moral value well, and i'm very thankful for that. 1001 things running through my head, but here's to my dad, I love you pa. Amazing to have this person as my dad, really!




And this is my niece joelle. Gosh chilli padi! but she never fails to make me smile most of the time.

Alright i gotta book in real soon for NDP rehersal, and tonight is gonna be another lengendary night with TEAM LN! muahahah

ps: TIM, come on la bro! you know that i'll miss you real bad if you go ns. who else am i gonna call out for frequent supper man! gosh. And i'm pretty sure you'll miss me just as bad.

Words can't describe how I exactly felt the moment I found out that i'm involved in this year NDP'08. OK I'm NOT the please, and I'm sure many of my bunk mate share with me the same sentiments. All my fridays and saturdays are burn man! I'm gonna like miss cell group and service for 2 months. I think somehow my connection with my cg will definitely take some draw back.

And Weilin is leaving really soon, i think like 2 months more, everything happen so quickly, gosh. Hmmm what can i do to treasure a person more before they leave. No matter what, I know that i won't have the chance after 2 months so might as well treasure I have at hand.

Ok thank God for speedy recovery in camp. I managed to just sleep in bunk the whole day on thurs to recoop. I was having a bad flu, sore throat and feeling groggy. Well i woke up in the mid day to play enemy in Alpha POI deployment in camp. It's like so fun wrecking their grounds, creating havok, and man! you guy should check out their reaction when we went over the the bench and steal their riffle and took stuffs metal detector and field chairs. They must have felt !!@%$&^%.

Alright time for my DRC (defensive riding course) so that i could ride in-camp legally, haha. I have a new nick, my bunk mates all call me chee-kok altho i totally have no why? LOL

Thanks gabriel for this pic. I tot it is priceless, cause i look so happy in it la!! it's at the end point btw

When you're in love, you tends to do stupid things! which I totally agree, surely i look like a dumbass! today... Don't feel like talking to much about it.

Just know that eating fruits are very important! many friends around me are falling sick one by one! gosh

I think I'm too used to hanging out with friends every weekend. Just one day at home! and i couldn't sit still...ARhgggg. I find it very hard to encourage and push my connect group. I sow in a lot of sweat into bringing Ed back to Christ, building relationship with him, suffered countless time of disappointments but i'm still pressing. So often, it's so easy to side track, you might end up forcing them unknowingly, but the key is still based on relationship. How man! Truth is, i really hate to arrange meetings, cause often people always want to know whose going etc and I've to like wrap up everything. It's tough and I really someone to talk to, I'm not even asking to be in a big scale party or wat, it's just drinking coffee at kopitiam, I'm THAT simple. Just this week, I've lost a friend, who decided to take a break from church for a while, he's a nice guy really, mighty man of God, people just take him for granted. I'm praying for him. Y does things have to turn out for him this way..

Anyway congrats Rhonda! we did it... I think you did a really awesome job pressing into the finishing line despite all the pain on ur knee and toes. And also to those who ran this race, like Chen huat, Tim, Jacky, Nigel, John, good job guys!!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in his wonderful face
And the things of this world will grow strangely dim
In the light of his glory and face

I think this is what that kept me going on in my Christian life. Without Christ, I am nothing.
I'll just have to fix my eye upon Jesus and nothing else matter, really..

It's gonna be fun. Looking forward to see daylight.

you know what!? i pass my driving test yesterday! haha amazingly, thank God and my cg members who kept me in prayers, luv u guys loads! So well i got a super low 6 demerit points, was quite surprised, but I'm all calm during the test. Some tips for those of you taking TP soon, just keep your testers feeling safe, and do all your checks, confirm sure pass, provided you must know how to react to adverse road conditions as well la.

So i did my island wide today, i got the opportunity to try the auto jeep, which feels like a convertible when you drive it cause it's open air, haha but I've to wear my SAF helmet for safety reason. The part that dread me most was the fact that we've to stick to our speed limits totally at 50km/h IMO is retarded. imagine you're traveling on expressway, it's torturous! and i have to clock 300km, that's crazy man. So far i only did 100km and it's very tiring because of the slow speed. Seow is a nice buddie you could have in a car, we just kept laughing chatting about random stuff.

I watch made of honor and i quite love it for the fact that i somehow can relate to some similar situation, of me taking my close female friends for granted at times. But it's really hilarious, all the gay scottish culture, following as MOH to see her change into hot lingerie, thunder beads! (that one is ultimate) i just kept laughing non stop, and sm and justine can come ask me what is it use for, gosh.. then we left for a short chill out at TCC douby for some really sucky drinks. That conclude my ACGLM(abandoned connect group leader meeting)

I've just collect my race pack today, my bib no. is 7004! ok buy this golden 4D number.the top is not as nice as i expected, but i feels comfy tho. Ok this is so so exciting, 7 more days to go to my first MARATHON!

And back in jeep course, driving everyday for me is bread and butter, getting so bored of it, LOL it's so fast right, tomrrow is my highway situation problem (play toy car), then my parking test follow by my driving test, all in one week. Ok i still need prayers for this, cause HSP passing rate is super low. But i don't want to fail. I can't afford to let my sat burn.

Tio ultimate pang seh la when i reach justine place, yl wl and derrick all left to their respectively desintination. Justine ah! must really plan proper, got nice movie also no use without good company rite. But the Raider of Lost Ark is good man, i would better than crystal skull, lol. I'm glad that edmund came to join me despite his piling assignments. else i would have to leave her place like the moment the rest leave. I bought donut factory, and it's still super nice IMO, esp double chocolate. That one really really UP on level one, but i look at myself, i may run often, but i'm like not getting any leaner either, gotta control my diet!! I'm so sorry JH for 'tricking' you to watch indiana jones. I wasn't expecting to watch that either, but since everybody flow that direction, lol.

Last thing to wrap this entry up, i quite enjoy CG this week, cause i'm glad new people are taking praise, worship and i'll love to comment once again that shimin, you did just great! i doubt i can lead this kind of praise the first time, haha. As for wl i think she stills lack confident, but her singing wise much better than sm, however she can afford to flow more in the spirit, it was a nice first attempt. I'm glad to be part of helping them in their first, awesome girls!

First up, thank you Edmund for lending me a phone, my phone is crap i know, but i really love it tho.

Finally i've completed my building fund and i'm happy about it, really i've made much sacrifice for a good cause, to build God a great house.

Anyway after svc yesterday, i went to my childhood friend christy teo swee cheng 21st. Felt kindda wierd cause i was there alone, but i'm glad a met a few fairsian like chanho, trisee, kai qing, had a good laugh reminiscing the past in secondary schools days.

Meet Ciao at DBl O with willie. Haha his girlfriend quite pretty sia, it was a good chill out session, not forgeting safra card members get in free before 10. moreover i get to chance to talk to some quite hot chics. quite suprise there was this girl who approach me randomly to strike a conversation. met some of my close polymate there as well, haha they're all now finishing OCS alr. Ciao has some nice friends too, as in they're nice to chat with.

Had a wonderful afternoon today with ed, cuz svc was really awesome. I felt that pst preach the msg better plus, the presence was much better. Oh did i say that i'll be back to JAMS soon! i think nothing much changes after 7 months. My kids remember me and gave a me a warmth hug, haha. Then i went to meet yulin, weilin and justine for lunch. we just kept yakking, i got great craving for donuts, had a good laugh over some random scenario. I wish could have a video cam to capture weilin's expression. I thought it was really funny, sometimes i feel that it is so much of a blessing to be able to express yourself, you laugh like as if there's no tomorrow. I'm glad that we talk. happy, yup really happy.

Then as usual i came home and did a 6km run. I really love my new pair of new balance 902, they're so light, and provide such stability in every stride, awesome! yea..

I'm so excited about tomorrow! cause I'm starting my jeep driving course. Feels like the first day i tried my class 2B, so anyway i spent the entire day at home devoted to the highway code book. i mean man! i forget lots of things man. I was given 350 questions to slowly do and revise, haha those who took basic theory will know it's not easy.

I ran 10km around my house area, i cover quite abit from my house to hillview and to jurong kechil and back by upp bukit timah road exiting cashew. Took around 53min, and suprisingly i'm not panting that badly! running at night is such a relaxing experience, i would recommend u guys to try it.

I'm in sort of a financial crisis now, as in my bank account is area close to hitting zero, tho I'm glad I've chosen to place God first, I'm done with my building fund, talking about a faithful steward. Anyway last sun was horrifying. I arrived at queenstown cc to play badminton with my cell mem and to find out that my chain suddenly got stuck at the sprocket, and my bike simply refuses to move. I've to shout for help and one nice guy came over to drag my bike to the side. I thank God that it didn't break down at the expressway man. So went around begging for tools, and upon closer inspection, the guy (so happen to be a mechanic) said that my gear has dropped, meaning to say putting the chain back would not have fix the problem. My heart sank, i called my brother for some help, and when i told him that I've ran out of cash, he scolded me like mad. Can you imagine if he found out that I gave that money away! Thank you Edmund for the temporary transfer $150 to me in such short notice, else i wouldn't have able to settle the bill. Gosh i'm turning 21 already and seriously i just simply refuse to ask my parents for money, cause i mean they're aging already, and i want to be filial to them, the last from my mind was to ever ask money from them. God i pray hard for a financial breakthrough in my life, I chose to believe that when one sow in tears, he'll reap in joy in due season, amen.

Now i just want a really good rest so that i won't dose off for tomorrow theory lesson SAF driving centre.

guess wat! i'm having my nights out! my friend were like all laughing at me when i said i want to head home straight, and they went to town to chill instead. Kind of lame rite, i mean u book out at 6 plus and have to be back at camp at 2230. Originally i was thinking of riding out, but there are darn too many officers hanging at the company line. I mean if they found out that i ride in secretly, manz hell break lose, confirm either extra or confinement. Just a background info, it's illegal to ride into camp without a valid vehicle pass which u have to go thru S1 branch to apply and you need to have a defensive riding licence, all of which i don't possess. Bleuhh..i'm just lazy la, haha.

SOC was really bad! i has so much difficulty carrying my SBO load running in the new route, my timing was a disgusting 9.58 like just pass. I used to hit like 8.58 back in SISPEC.

Now i'm training hard for SUNDOWN marathon, and i got ms Rhonda Tan running with me, yay! she's training rly hard as well, hopefully i'm able to make it through safely. I did my 10km on monday, time was around 55min. Quite siong, i wasn't panting, but my physical body is telling my leg not to run, now after 2 days, it's aching all over. Gosh, nonetheless i feels good to run distance, when you find that you're at ur brink of ur running, keep running and rely on the holyspirit, i prayed and it sure felt good that day. I mean, i just can't emphasize how important it is that everyone need God, cause if we walk by out own strength, we're bound to fail somehow. Ok time for dinner at home, looking forward to cell group this week!

I thought that this week svc with mrs cho is really good. Given the fact that she's like 70+ and she still sings and preach like in her 30s. Plus she's a professional musician, with a PHD in music, gosh..that's something to wow about. Anyway this week outing was good.

Fri with the fairsians, supper at almeen then go watch midnight shows till 4 am

Sat pre svc was good as well, had a good time teaching shu en, she's really improving fast and a good fellowship with wayne at bedok.

Sun my make up cell, which turns out to be a pm, which was good, then chill out a short while with yulin, derrick and wl, then night jamming with andri and edmund!

I'm really glad that alvin came to svc with ed this week, indeed through prayers and good follow up, people will eventually see light.

wayne said : "while people do not see a need to seek God, our purpose is to show the way to let them know that we all can't live without Him." i totally agree.

now gotta rush to book in!!

gosh..another week past in maju camp, and it's getting really bored in there. Well the only high key is Ippt, which suprisingly i didn't train at all and i still pass!!, haha. ok said thing is still the chin up, only managed 7! darn! is like all my other requirement all gold already except this, and my 2.4km run broke new best at 9.23. *clap clap* i guess every morning when we've nothing to do, we just do alot of pt to keep fit which i feel its great! moreover i just done a 8km run in 35min!! i'm quite amazed. which brings me to whether i should join a marathon. definitely i've to train. while other think that 'siao, why pay money to torture yourself' i think otherwise. I really felt a deep sense of satisfaction in running lately.

putting that aside, daily in camp for me is all PSP and sleep and eat and sleep. This kind of unproductive life is annoying me seriously.

last night, i went over to Ed house late night with Andri to jam, check out this band Bamboo in youtube, they have this a song hallelujah, very nice rock tunes serious, very alternative. what's more they're phillippino. Now i know that they are all really tallented musician over there, and the vocalist accent is amazing, i almost thought they're some hit band in US.

So to curb with the bordem issue in camp, i went over to John little EXPO sales to buy some food to eat. haha i just went in for 20 min, i spent $47, gosh! but largely goes to the FCUK top and perfume set. You guys should really check out the big box of chocolate by solen, they are freaking addictive. i bought whole box of bueno copy for like only $7+ which is really worth it, and i found out that they make snickers copies as well. Do not be fooled by the price, i believe they're made in turkey!

ok i really miss talking to her, don't know whether if i'm advoiding her or she's advoiding me. gotta start communicating somehow

This week in camp is kindda static... apart from playing psp, we attended a POI(protection of installation) crash course, which includes, scanning vehicle, personnel search, arrest using handcuff, stuff like that. gotta admit that i'm not really talented in using handcuff, i kept messing up, when it comes to preparation of the position of the cuff to cuff on the hand, not easy k. And you have to pin down your buddie after pushing them down on the floor locking them with your knees. Ouch!

I like jack johnson! his music is like so simple, plain and carries a very positive vibe in them, example UPSIDE DOWN and BETTER TOGETHER, they're really nice. I think i might play them for people's party this coming SUN at VIVOCITY evening time at a cafe downstairs GV. Cause basically there will be live unplugged performance, by eehemm yours truely and few other zai vocalist as well, so stay tune.

Easter is really awesome so far, esp the drama performance, i would say they've reach a new height. Imagine infusing modern day settings with old jeruselem settings, i thought the depicting of the death of Christ has been rather accurate, esp in the emotions, anxiety involved in the play. No wonder thousands of people flock down to expo the past 2 days to catch it, even i myself i've watched it twice. The only regret, i nv bring any friend! basically they pang seh me last min. But i seriously thought they will be tremendously blessed by the drama.

looking forward to the ATP shoot tomrrow, must get my markmanship badge and the $200 dangling carrot. yum yum.

SOT! now everyone seems to be going in, and i'm still not!! why why!!?? So wished i didn't have to serve ns.. now those who ORDed like ming jie, zen min, those who just finish a's like yulin, weilin, those studyin like peng, i'm so envious of them!! It'll really cool if bible school still have 5 months course in future. But anyway...i've just rot my time away with tim,wah keong, cass and vincent at esplanade playing my guitar. really nice to go there once in a while to chill out..take some time to enjoy, the sea breeze, playing some worship songs, pop music and chit chat. Felt wayy much better. self doubt gotten to me earlier, thinking i'm a poor communicator esp in remedying a cracked relationship.

on the other hand, i'm glad that i've been given the opportunity to lead a team of musician for upcoming event 30th march at vivo. I guess the most difficult for me right now is the selection of songs suitable for the vocalist. headache...

oh and i've to book in later like at 9pm! so early right, i think life is sispec maybe better.

sorry tim..should have told ya i'm sleepy, and ya i know it's super dangerous