I went over to visit the MO today. Basically i got into a minor accident on the road last saturday that hurt my feet. I shan't disclose the details but basically i am reffered over to CMPB medical centre department for x-ray. I think it's not that serious, since i'm still able to walk.

A brief highlight over the past 2 days.

Sunday was sentosa splash, and it was a blast! really..altho i didn't really perticipate much because of my injury, still it's enjoyable enjoyable enough for all. Most importantly many new friends enjoys the hypness of the whole event. My team voila won 3rd! haha. yea i got badly tan..now have singlet tan line which is disgusting! Sadly i lost one of my favourite jacket that i left in the toilet. Can't believe I was that careless to have left it in the shower. I tried flying back to the island from vivo, but to no avail. Ahrgg!!

Monday - i went over to Lor Asrama to chop trees, for A frames building session. Let me tell you somethings, fruits in the wild are extremely delicious! I found rambutans, durian and jackfruits. Ha only the rambutan is in edible state, but well it sure was fun trying to find all these fruits, doing stupid things to shake the rambutans down.

Well nothing much to reports, except that i'm enjoying my rest at home today because of a half day off.

I think it's time for me to move on in live as well. What's mean to be, it's mean to be. nonetheless, i still feel the tangling feeling in my heart. I miss talking to her.

I've decided to enroll myself to class 2a bike course. Basically my current bike coe coming to a end and i'm not intending to continue riding it. So probably i'm sharing a bigger cc bike with my brother. yup... But this will be quite financial straining for me. And now that i've got start putting money back to my sister cpf account for my poly education. Dang... felt really strained financially. Let's pray for a financial breakthrough!

So i've finally decided to pull the plug for now. It's a hard decision but one that i have to make for the good of everyone. I'm not sad just disappointed that i've to resort to this...

everytime i get home, i still remember to put either $1 or $0.50 into the green elephant. It just makes me happy.

What Yap Pow Wee Means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I had a very disheartening week. 3 of my bunk mates were injured 2 of which is when we're doing our enemy POI deployment. Crazy alpha and Bravo company, Support company was actually kind enough to deploy our precious manpower to help them to simulate some real time action. Shannon had a exoskeletal sprains on his arm. one of the bravo guy had JUDO him down. Ben has minor tissue tear on his right knees, apparently while running away from alpha guys, they gave chase, he fell and they pin him down real hard. Mark suffered from appendicitis yesterday morning and he has a really hard time because NUH has no C ward for him and his family had to shift him to Mt alvernia, which he did the ops there. So not possibly for him and shannon, they'll most prob be down for reccee commander course. Arhgg...

I felt that i'm losing grips of many things in life right now. And i'm just lost on how am ever gonna makes things right for myself. So often there i've really thought of just giving up, then i'll no longer have financial, emotional, mental strains at least. And i'm not talking about girls here, truth is i've been feeling dry lately. I last time always wonder how was it like for my friend to gone through the process of backsliding and the constant struggle to fight to come back, often they just choose to leave. Now i'm catching a glimpse of it alr. I doubt that i make a good connect group leader, cause seriously judging from my fruits i'm a far league away from ppl like peng,yl or even cheesy. I mean these are the most hardworking bunch of youth i've seen, working so hard tirelessly for christ sakes. I respect them, but i doubt i've that capacity. Too many doubts, too little fruits, and hectic shedules coming up in unit. How?..

have you felt totally useless when u fail to make the you love most happy. And there's totally really nothing you can do.

Ok just that for me..it's not the one i love..but rather a friend that i'm dying to have, to know her..well she's special to me, don't know why i suddenly felt quite weird when i met her to pass her some chocolate and cookies. Indeed we're living in stressful times, all i want is for her to be happy. looks like i failed badly even as friend. Ha who am i kidding...it seems like i've crossed the path of no return. How am i ever going to bring down this thick layer of wall that plague this relationship.

Anyway i was badly drench while sending my friend to changi to run some errand, think i'm catching a cold soon. bleugh...i really hate falling sick. I'm glad to have book out but tomrrow is another day of sleepless night because of POI enemy deployment.

And i so love my new HTC touch that i bought last week. Hail to PDA phone, they made my life so much more interesting

DO you believe in fate?

What i've plan for 2 weeks end up in total nothing.

I've no idea why i bother to recee the ground, wash my helmet, it's just suppose to be a simple farewell dinner for her.

Somehow.. something just crop up

I think no point in marking the calendar, 29th is a day i'll remember.

Just not fated..

well today is battalion anniversay off day at safra Yishun. It means off for half a day la! haha.. early in the morning at 7am i've to report in, i drag myself up cause i was still super sleepy. Had a good time of bowling with my bunkmates, esp those crazy changing of names while bowling like CHEEKOK, TYCO KIA, CHARLIE BRAVO KILO, KOH SOON LI, LOGAN, NIGELLA, AH PUI SEOW, TAN KOK SAI, man! all these bring back funny memories things that happen in army. anw i did say i was sleepy so you see, the previous night i had supper with wayne, cheesy and sen min near bugis there.

But last night was Arty farty night for me. Went to this place to watch local short films where wayne found through his fass friends, and i tot wow. I really love this place, and it might possibly well be my next secret hide-out. Ok i can't reveal this place, cuz i made pact with wayne not to divulge the location. Ok why this place is so special, because firstly it's really quiet, so esp when you want to have some peace of mind away from stressful work environment, it's really helpful. 2nd, you can do few things, like just go there for a stroll to admire the retro architecture, interesting signboards, nice lunch out or catch short films! And i rly mean that the staff over there are really friendly.

i've felt quite disappointed lately, because of the way i feel my friends taking me for granted. Example, in the area of time. Because i think that now when in army, time has become something of great importance to me and i made the decision to be a good steward of time, by being on time. anw i ended waiting for a group of friends for around an hour! after meeting time..and what i really can't stand is the fact that they didn't respect my value of time. Esp because of all the sacrifices i made to push my schedules aside just to be on time. Be a faithful steward of time, because you never know when your next big business opportunity comes, and imagine you being just a minute late, it's over. Ok there are also another instance when someone comes into my mind, and i decide to spend my nights maybe to meet up to chill, build up relationship, and there are those whom i really feel they just don't give a damn kind of attitude. No replies, no call back despite sometimes repeated messages or call. Ok i'm not desperate, at least respect friendship that has been forge in the past. Even if you don't even feel like meeting up, i mean it's a good manner to even reply, not leave somebody hanging down there in the air. I'm not here to pinpoint anyones, but just sharing some of thoughts that ran through my minds the past few days. Irritating...

Alright another person i want to thank also is Edmund. Thank God for him, who come to save me like almost immediately when i text him when i told him my bike died out somewhere near my house. Stupid me forget to pump petrol and left frantic and lost for a spur moment.

I'm glad i still went over to his place to him up after that for LOUD nightout, eventhough he almost last minute pang seh me. Everything's really rah rah last night, all where like woooo so hype up. Of course it really nice to see so many new faces. But more to that, it's the passion for the Lord that's bringing e406 to greater heights!

Ok last week i miss out on a important entry so here it goes..




This is my dad, and we had a wonderful ba kut teh session together on fathers day together with my family which include, my elder brother paul and sis-in-law vivi, my elder sister sharon and my bro-in-law jeffrey, my mum and baby niece joelle! Anyway i just want to reserve this small space to thank my earthly father. Truely I feel that God has bless me with this wonderful dad, who despite facing many problems, fought through daily to provide for the family, he's our pillar of strength, he may not say it but i know that love my mum and all his children. I appreciate all the things he's done to make me happy when i was younger, which was satisfied through material pessession and now that i've grown up, i thank him for trusting me with freedoms some youth may not have at my age. I've become who I am today, because he has taught me my moral value well, and i'm very thankful for that. 1001 things running through my head, but here's to my dad, I love you pa. Amazing to have this person as my dad, really!




And this is my niece joelle. Gosh chilli padi! but she never fails to make me smile most of the time.

Alright i gotta book in real soon for NDP rehersal, and tonight is gonna be another lengendary night with TEAM LN! muahahah

ps: TIM, come on la bro! you know that i'll miss you real bad if you go ns. who else am i gonna call out for frequent supper man! gosh. And i'm pretty sure you'll miss me just as bad.

Words can't describe how I exactly felt the moment I found out that i'm involved in this year NDP'08. OK I'm NOT the please, and I'm sure many of my bunk mate share with me the same sentiments. All my fridays and saturdays are burn man! I'm gonna like miss cell group and service for 2 months. I think somehow my connection with my cg will definitely take some draw back.

And Weilin is leaving really soon, i think like 2 months more, everything happen so quickly, gosh. Hmmm what can i do to treasure a person more before they leave. No matter what, I know that i won't have the chance after 2 months so might as well treasure I have at hand.

Ok thank God for speedy recovery in camp. I managed to just sleep in bunk the whole day on thurs to recoop. I was having a bad flu, sore throat and feeling groggy. Well i woke up in the mid day to play enemy in Alpha POI deployment in camp. It's like so fun wrecking their grounds, creating havok, and man! you guy should check out their reaction when we went over the the bench and steal their riffle and took stuffs metal detector and field chairs. They must have felt !!@%$&^%.

Alright time for my DRC (defensive riding course) so that i could ride in-camp legally, haha. I have a new nick, my bunk mates all call me chee-kok altho i totally have no why? LOL

Thanks gabriel for this pic. I tot it is priceless, cause i look so happy in it la!! it's at the end point btw

When you're in love, you tends to do stupid things! which I totally agree, surely i look like a dumbass! today... Don't feel like talking to much about it.

Just know that eating fruits are very important! many friends around me are falling sick one by one! gosh

I think I'm too used to hanging out with friends every weekend. Just one day at home! and i couldn't sit still...ARhgggg. I find it very hard to encourage and push my connect group. I sow in a lot of sweat into bringing Ed back to Christ, building relationship with him, suffered countless time of disappointments but i'm still pressing. So often, it's so easy to side track, you might end up forcing them unknowingly, but the key is still based on relationship. How man! Truth is, i really hate to arrange meetings, cause often people always want to know whose going etc and I've to like wrap up everything. It's tough and I really someone to talk to, I'm not even asking to be in a big scale party or wat, it's just drinking coffee at kopitiam, I'm THAT simple. Just this week, I've lost a friend, who decided to take a break from church for a while, he's a nice guy really, mighty man of God, people just take him for granted. I'm praying for him. Y does things have to turn out for him this way..

Anyway congrats Rhonda! we did it... I think you did a really awesome job pressing into the finishing line despite all the pain on ur knee and toes. And also to those who ran this race, like Chen huat, Tim, Jacky, Nigel, John, good job guys!!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in his wonderful face
And the things of this world will grow strangely dim
In the light of his glory and face

I think this is what that kept me going on in my Christian life. Without Christ, I am nothing.
I'll just have to fix my eye upon Jesus and nothing else matter, really..

It's gonna be fun. Looking forward to see daylight.

you know what!? i pass my driving test yesterday! haha amazingly, thank God and my cg members who kept me in prayers, luv u guys loads! So well i got a super low 6 demerit points, was quite surprised, but I'm all calm during the test. Some tips for those of you taking TP soon, just keep your testers feeling safe, and do all your checks, confirm sure pass, provided you must know how to react to adverse road conditions as well la.

So i did my island wide today, i got the opportunity to try the auto jeep, which feels like a convertible when you drive it cause it's open air, haha but I've to wear my SAF helmet for safety reason. The part that dread me most was the fact that we've to stick to our speed limits totally at 50km/h IMO is retarded. imagine you're traveling on expressway, it's torturous! and i have to clock 300km, that's crazy man. So far i only did 100km and it's very tiring because of the slow speed. Seow is a nice buddie you could have in a car, we just kept laughing chatting about random stuff.

I watch made of honor and i quite love it for the fact that i somehow can relate to some similar situation, of me taking my close female friends for granted at times. But it's really hilarious, all the gay scottish culture, following as MOH to see her change into hot lingerie, thunder beads! (that one is ultimate) i just kept laughing non stop, and sm and justine can come ask me what is it use for, gosh.. then we left for a short chill out at TCC douby for some really sucky drinks. That conclude my ACGLM(abandoned connect group leader meeting)

I've just collect my race pack today, my bib no. is 7004! ok buy this golden 4D number.the top is not as nice as i expected, but i feels comfy tho. Ok this is so so exciting, 7 more days to go to my first MARATHON!

And back in jeep course, driving everyday for me is bread and butter, getting so bored of it, LOL it's so fast right, tomrrow is my highway situation problem (play toy car), then my parking test follow by my driving test, all in one week. Ok i still need prayers for this, cause HSP passing rate is super low. But i don't want to fail. I can't afford to let my sat burn.

Tio ultimate pang seh la when i reach justine place, yl wl and derrick all left to their respectively desintination. Justine ah! must really plan proper, got nice movie also no use without good company rite. But the Raider of Lost Ark is good man, i would better than crystal skull, lol. I'm glad that edmund came to join me despite his piling assignments. else i would have to leave her place like the moment the rest leave. I bought donut factory, and it's still super nice IMO, esp double chocolate. That one really really UP on level one, but i look at myself, i may run often, but i'm like not getting any leaner either, gotta control my diet!! I'm so sorry JH for 'tricking' you to watch indiana jones. I wasn't expecting to watch that either, but since everybody flow that direction, lol.

Last thing to wrap this entry up, i quite enjoy CG this week, cause i'm glad new people are taking praise, worship and i'll love to comment once again that shimin, you did just great! i doubt i can lead this kind of praise the first time, haha. As for wl i think she stills lack confident, but her singing wise much better than sm, however she can afford to flow more in the spirit, it was a nice first attempt. I'm glad to be part of helping them in their first, awesome girls!

First up, thank you Edmund for lending me a phone, my phone is crap i know, but i really love it tho.

Finally i've completed my building fund and i'm happy about it, really i've made much sacrifice for a good cause, to build God a great house.

Anyway after svc yesterday, i went to my childhood friend christy teo swee cheng 21st. Felt kindda wierd cause i was there alone, but i'm glad a met a few fairsian like chanho, trisee, kai qing, had a good laugh reminiscing the past in secondary schools days.

Meet Ciao at DBl O with willie. Haha his girlfriend quite pretty sia, it was a good chill out session, not forgeting safra card members get in free before 10. moreover i get to chance to talk to some quite hot chics. quite suprise there was this girl who approach me randomly to strike a conversation. met some of my close polymate there as well, haha they're all now finishing OCS alr. Ciao has some nice friends too, as in they're nice to chat with.

Had a wonderful afternoon today with ed, cuz svc was really awesome. I felt that pst preach the msg better plus, the presence was much better. Oh did i say that i'll be back to JAMS soon! i think nothing much changes after 7 months. My kids remember me and gave a me a warmth hug, haha. Then i went to meet yulin, weilin and justine for lunch. we just kept yakking, i got great craving for donuts, had a good laugh over some random scenario. I wish could have a video cam to capture weilin's expression. I thought it was really funny, sometimes i feel that it is so much of a blessing to be able to express yourself, you laugh like as if there's no tomorrow. I'm glad that we talk. happy, yup really happy.

Then as usual i came home and did a 6km run. I really love my new pair of new balance 902, they're so light, and provide such stability in every stride, awesome! yea..