hey hey!!! i'm so so glad that finally RCC phase 1 is over. 5 days outfield, RTI training and conclude with a urban recce. Ok it was shag, i requires alot of determination and i'm glad i've pulled it through by the grace of God. What's better is the feeling of wearing the jungle hat, woo hoo!! yay i'm pretty much done with RCC. I'm just really really happy.

And congrats my dear bunkmate NIGEL KEITH,, happy 20!!. Glad to have u in bunk, altho you always piss me off, making fun of me, but i guess that's what that made us bond as brothers. We've gone thru shit in RCC and we're now a pride wearer of the jungle hat. You showed me real strength despite your weaknesses. Last bbq was really fun, haha. Of course your nice food you've bought for 5.1 POWER la.

WL replied my mail! haha...i really hope that i can cont to faithfully write to her every fortnightly. I've seen few of her sketches, power la! no wonder she's arty farty. really missed her.

Just last week, pastor talk about sonship. This week, i had it slipped off my mind. I was off focus, i left cg for the bbq and didn't inform wayne. The thing is, i missed the connect leader meeting. I wasn't told, but i could have taken the intiative to be accountable to my leader abt my wherebout. Ok this didn't happen just this once, but few times before alr. I guess this is my character flaws. I'm trying to change, nobody is perfect. To me, i see accountability of utmost importance, but at the same time i'm having a tough time doing it myself. Sure it's really tough. Many may know me as loud, smiling all the times, but my close friend would have seen my serious side. Turning 21 alr this year, time for me to step up and be really discipled. I know i need it. But it's one tough road up.

Today jamming at alvron, brought back many nostalgic feeling. Still remember back in 03, when i was with revo, still starting out, we have no complains on the equipment. NOw, haha it's really bad. But still i thought the session was really fruitful. We covered much ground despite it being impromtu. Everyone was on the ball to flow with one another, i see much potential here.

Adeline granny got in hopst, i think is quite serious, and she's close to her one. CG's been praying hard that she'll pull thru this round. AND Justine told me today her grandpa also got into hopst, also about to go alr. I don't know what to say, but hate this kind of feeling. Like friend around you, this kind of bad news happening, what to do? how do i go about consoling them when really something happen. I feel i'm a lousy friend when i fail to cheer them up. And often that's so true rite. Life is fragile, take time to appreciate your love one when they're alive, u nv know what's gonna happen next.

Sorry for the long post and incoherent no link topics. Guess that's just my style of blogging, no link.

just did my combat survival training this week. Errr highlight includes 40 hr fasting, follow by a quail killing session when we're at hungriest point of time! grrrrr it's pretty straight forward. I tell u, nothing else tast better at that point in time, because you're really so tired!! Ok this week pass really fast, in fact these 2 weeks all very fast, cuz all outfield!! Pls pray for me, i'm be away again, this time in tekong for 5 days mission. Expect very little sleep, and i'm dying alr, RTI is up, this time on me, imagine no water for 12 hours, grrr!!! don't know what stupid things the interrogator will do to me. Guess i can only look forward to the jungle hat presentation!! woo hoo..

I love what pastor preach about sonship, the way we should carry our church DNA, esp follow in the vision, sacrificing all so that you can be the one who will support the church vision all the way. Doing the will of God. Arise and build 08, i guess it's gonna be a hell of a ride once again. I'm looking forward to it :)

I'm finally back for this weekend! This is ultimate shag to the max. Ex. Longwalk was a killer. 60+km in 39 hours in 30kg fieldpack. I'm done for mentally the moment i reach end point. Yet the sense of pride grew so strongly inside of me, the moment I think i've achieve this crazy feat. Praise God for leading me through, i didn't screw up in my navigation. Now i'm a step closer to my jungle hat! yoohoo. For now i just was to slack in my bed, next week another shag session, 4 days outfield.

I think i'm starting to get emo alr. Cuz wl is gonna leave for UK on the 15th! Time really fly. So many regrets, so many thing i tried to forget. everytime i think about it, my mood sunk.

money no enough 2 event today was awesome. I'm glad i brought my mum. I glad she enjoyed it. And I've learn to cherish her more after the show. I think Jack's movie has really gone up the next level, bringing in not just a comedy,(laugh and forget kind of movie) but rather something with substance or specific theme. It has a strong theme of filial piety which the current Asian culture is losing because of western influence. I particularly love the hokkien song, mother just a name. Even though the melody i don't quite catch it, the emotion was strong when the singer sang it live. It was a good chance for me to express my love for my mum today as well. You don't have to wait till mother's day to tell your mum that you love her, start today!

I hurt my back over the week. Particularly in my spinal area. I guess i should have taken more precaution in carrying the heavy load. It was a tough week and even more to come. I hate the fact that everywhere i go, i've to lug the alispack with me, and it's not light. I it so heavy that i need to lie down strap myself onto the fieldpack and slowly get up. Fast march was a killer. My brain just shut down the moment i reach end point. I know could only live to look forward to a brand new day, after each daily siong training. I could have just give up, but i choose not to. Because i am strong. For God works within me. I could have carry a sian mood, but i choose to keep my spirit up. I am strong. Thanks for the nice hearty meal at NYDC on friday. It really serves as a reminder for me that i can continue to forward to booking out each week. Thank you Lord.

I'm watching the table tennis olympics finals now, it sure is very excited. But i guess we all know the eventual outcome, though kudos to the women team that made it to the final yea! One thing i've to say.. China's Zhang Yining is really a monster of her own, period, haha.

Some updates,
I'll be heading on course, RCC tomorrow. I'm mentally prepared. Probably will be one of the toughest period in my army life. I caught a glimpse of hell fast march on the crazy load. I could almost died. The alispack does not help much either. I dread goin in, but it's a giant i've to face, because i know i'll become stronger. This week have been fruitful. Prayer meetings in the morning is awesome. and i'm loving it. I really wish i could have attend this week as well! PLC is super near church la. Ok i just want to sleep now. Haven't been sleeping well.

PS: I got a really good friend who got attached! and she nv tell me :( i know U r reading this!!

one important area of every human life is LOVE. Everyone needs love, everyone is looking for love, and everyone is finding somebody to love. It is also a area that i feel we have to guard ourselves carefully as well. Do not love someone for your own selfish desire, love the person for who he/she really is. It's a happy thing, and one should really enjoy it to God's original intent. Just like Christ love for us all. I met this person recently, we hit off quite well, but i've just got to guard my heart for now. Recee course coming, cell groups multiplying, gonna be quite busy from next week. Still I really thank God for his grace this week, for the many days of off i've been given. This is really power. Morning prayer meeting at jurong west even more power. Gosh i'm addicted to this morning prayer, i just feel so fresh after that. :)

I went over to visit the MO today. Basically i got into a minor accident on the road last saturday that hurt my feet. I shan't disclose the details but basically i am reffered over to CMPB medical centre department for x-ray. I think it's not that serious, since i'm still able to walk.

A brief highlight over the past 2 days.

Sunday was sentosa splash, and it was a blast! really..altho i didn't really perticipate much because of my injury, still it's enjoyable enjoyable enough for all. Most importantly many new friends enjoys the hypness of the whole event. My team voila won 3rd! haha. yea i got badly tan..now have singlet tan line which is disgusting! Sadly i lost one of my favourite jacket that i left in the toilet. Can't believe I was that careless to have left it in the shower. I tried flying back to the island from vivo, but to no avail. Ahrgg!!

Monday - i went over to Lor Asrama to chop trees, for A frames building session. Let me tell you somethings, fruits in the wild are extremely delicious! I found rambutans, durian and jackfruits. Ha only the rambutan is in edible state, but well it sure was fun trying to find all these fruits, doing stupid things to shake the rambutans down.

Well nothing much to reports, except that i'm enjoying my rest at home today because of a half day off.

I think it's time for me to move on in live as well. What's mean to be, it's mean to be. nonetheless, i still feel the tangling feeling in my heart. I miss talking to her.

I've decided to enroll myself to class 2a bike course. Basically my current bike coe coming to a end and i'm not intending to continue riding it. So probably i'm sharing a bigger cc bike with my brother. yup... But this will be quite financial straining for me. And now that i've got start putting money back to my sister cpf account for my poly education. Dang... felt really strained financially. Let's pray for a financial breakthrough!

So i've finally decided to pull the plug for now. It's a hard decision but one that i have to make for the good of everyone. I'm not sad just disappointed that i've to resort to this...

everytime i get home, i still remember to put either $1 or $0.50 into the green elephant. It just makes me happy.

What Yap Pow Wee Means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I had a very disheartening week. 3 of my bunk mates were injured 2 of which is when we're doing our enemy POI deployment. Crazy alpha and Bravo company, Support company was actually kind enough to deploy our precious manpower to help them to simulate some real time action. Shannon had a exoskeletal sprains on his arm. one of the bravo guy had JUDO him down. Ben has minor tissue tear on his right knees, apparently while running away from alpha guys, they gave chase, he fell and they pin him down real hard. Mark suffered from appendicitis yesterday morning and he has a really hard time because NUH has no C ward for him and his family had to shift him to Mt alvernia, which he did the ops there. So not possibly for him and shannon, they'll most prob be down for reccee commander course. Arhgg...

I felt that i'm losing grips of many things in life right now. And i'm just lost on how am ever gonna makes things right for myself. So often there i've really thought of just giving up, then i'll no longer have financial, emotional, mental strains at least. And i'm not talking about girls here, truth is i've been feeling dry lately. I last time always wonder how was it like for my friend to gone through the process of backsliding and the constant struggle to fight to come back, often they just choose to leave. Now i'm catching a glimpse of it alr. I doubt that i make a good connect group leader, cause seriously judging from my fruits i'm a far league away from ppl like peng,yl or even cheesy. I mean these are the most hardworking bunch of youth i've seen, working so hard tirelessly for christ sakes. I respect them, but i doubt i've that capacity. Too many doubts, too little fruits, and hectic shedules coming up in unit. How?..

have you felt totally useless when u fail to make the you love most happy. And there's totally really nothing you can do.

Ok just that for me..it's not the one i love..but rather a friend that i'm dying to have, to know her..well she's special to me, don't know why i suddenly felt quite weird when i met her to pass her some chocolate and cookies. Indeed we're living in stressful times, all i want is for her to be happy. looks like i failed badly even as friend. Ha who am i kidding...it seems like i've crossed the path of no return. How am i ever going to bring down this thick layer of wall that plague this relationship.

Anyway i was badly drench while sending my friend to changi to run some errand, think i'm catching a cold soon. bleugh...i really hate falling sick. I'm glad to have book out but tomrrow is another day of sleepless night because of POI enemy deployment.

And i so love my new HTC touch that i bought last week. Hail to PDA phone, they made my life so much more interesting

DO you believe in fate?

What i've plan for 2 weeks end up in total nothing.

I've no idea why i bother to recee the ground, wash my helmet, it's just suppose to be a simple farewell dinner for her.

Somehow.. something just crop up

I think no point in marking the calendar, 29th is a day i'll remember.

Just not fated..

well today is battalion anniversay off day at safra Yishun. It means off for half a day la! haha.. early in the morning at 7am i've to report in, i drag myself up cause i was still super sleepy. Had a good time of bowling with my bunkmates, esp those crazy changing of names while bowling like CHEEKOK, TYCO KIA, CHARLIE BRAVO KILO, KOH SOON LI, LOGAN, NIGELLA, AH PUI SEOW, TAN KOK SAI, man! all these bring back funny memories things that happen in army. anw i did say i was sleepy so you see, the previous night i had supper with wayne, cheesy and sen min near bugis there.

But last night was Arty farty night for me. Went to this place to watch local short films where wayne found through his fass friends, and i tot wow. I really love this place, and it might possibly well be my next secret hide-out. Ok i can't reveal this place, cuz i made pact with wayne not to divulge the location. Ok why this place is so special, because firstly it's really quiet, so esp when you want to have some peace of mind away from stressful work environment, it's really helpful. 2nd, you can do few things, like just go there for a stroll to admire the retro architecture, interesting signboards, nice lunch out or catch short films! And i rly mean that the staff over there are really friendly.

i've felt quite disappointed lately, because of the way i feel my friends taking me for granted. Example, in the area of time. Because i think that now when in army, time has become something of great importance to me and i made the decision to be a good steward of time, by being on time. anw i ended waiting for a group of friends for around an hour! after meeting time..and what i really can't stand is the fact that they didn't respect my value of time. Esp because of all the sacrifices i made to push my schedules aside just to be on time. Be a faithful steward of time, because you never know when your next big business opportunity comes, and imagine you being just a minute late, it's over. Ok there are also another instance when someone comes into my mind, and i decide to spend my nights maybe to meet up to chill, build up relationship, and there are those whom i really feel they just don't give a damn kind of attitude. No replies, no call back despite sometimes repeated messages or call. Ok i'm not desperate, at least respect friendship that has been forge in the past. Even if you don't even feel like meeting up, i mean it's a good manner to even reply, not leave somebody hanging down there in the air. I'm not here to pinpoint anyones, but just sharing some of thoughts that ran through my minds the past few days. Irritating...

Alright another person i want to thank also is Edmund. Thank God for him, who come to save me like almost immediately when i text him when i told him my bike died out somewhere near my house. Stupid me forget to pump petrol and left frantic and lost for a spur moment.

I'm glad i still went over to his place to him up after that for LOUD nightout, eventhough he almost last minute pang seh me. Everything's really rah rah last night, all where like woooo so hype up. Of course it really nice to see so many new faces. But more to that, it's the passion for the Lord that's bringing e406 to greater heights!

Ok last week i miss out on a important entry so here it goes..




This is my dad, and we had a wonderful ba kut teh session together on fathers day together with my family which include, my elder brother paul and sis-in-law vivi, my elder sister sharon and my bro-in-law jeffrey, my mum and baby niece joelle! Anyway i just want to reserve this small space to thank my earthly father. Truely I feel that God has bless me with this wonderful dad, who despite facing many problems, fought through daily to provide for the family, he's our pillar of strength, he may not say it but i know that love my mum and all his children. I appreciate all the things he's done to make me happy when i was younger, which was satisfied through material pessession and now that i've grown up, i thank him for trusting me with freedoms some youth may not have at my age. I've become who I am today, because he has taught me my moral value well, and i'm very thankful for that. 1001 things running through my head, but here's to my dad, I love you pa. Amazing to have this person as my dad, really!




And this is my niece joelle. Gosh chilli padi! but she never fails to make me smile most of the time.

Alright i gotta book in real soon for NDP rehersal, and tonight is gonna be another lengendary night with TEAM LN! muahahah

ps: TIM, come on la bro! you know that i'll miss you real bad if you go ns. who else am i gonna call out for frequent supper man! gosh. And i'm pretty sure you'll miss me just as bad.

Words can't describe how I exactly felt the moment I found out that i'm involved in this year NDP'08. OK I'm NOT the please, and I'm sure many of my bunk mate share with me the same sentiments. All my fridays and saturdays are burn man! I'm gonna like miss cell group and service for 2 months. I think somehow my connection with my cg will definitely take some draw back.

And Weilin is leaving really soon, i think like 2 months more, everything happen so quickly, gosh. Hmmm what can i do to treasure a person more before they leave. No matter what, I know that i won't have the chance after 2 months so might as well treasure I have at hand.

Ok thank God for speedy recovery in camp. I managed to just sleep in bunk the whole day on thurs to recoop. I was having a bad flu, sore throat and feeling groggy. Well i woke up in the mid day to play enemy in Alpha POI deployment in camp. It's like so fun wrecking their grounds, creating havok, and man! you guy should check out their reaction when we went over the the bench and steal their riffle and took stuffs metal detector and field chairs. They must have felt !!@%$&^%.

Alright time for my DRC (defensive riding course) so that i could ride in-camp legally, haha. I have a new nick, my bunk mates all call me chee-kok altho i totally have no why? LOL

Thanks gabriel for this pic. I tot it is priceless, cause i look so happy in it la!! it's at the end point btw

When you're in love, you tends to do stupid things! which I totally agree, surely i look like a dumbass! today... Don't feel like talking to much about it.

Just know that eating fruits are very important! many friends around me are falling sick one by one! gosh