I'm gonna book in soon. Yet another shag week in CST. Good news is, the canoeing today is really awesome. I sort of relive my teenage days in sec sch when i took the lessons. Amazing stuff!!

Thanks Dirisa, i really think you're really a good friend. I doubt you'll read this. But don't worries, i believe God will set out the path straight for u somehow.

Flying to thai is 6 days time!!

Last evening service with Pst Stephan Munsey blew my mind away literary. Never had i once heard any preacher deliver message the way he does. And i admit, he's super good at it. But again, i think he has probably the gift of directing. From the way he develop the story when he preaches, and the main thing is it leaves people gripping onto their edge of the seat. Awesome session.

It was very tiring week at camp. The fieldcamp is super draggy. Now i know motivating man outfield is not a easy task. I gotta stay strong and focus. Lead by example, cannot be shag.

My heart still feel tingly everytime i see her. I really pray that this feeling will evaporate pretty soon. Else all i'll be thinking of is her every now and then. End of the day i know it won't head anywhere if i were to persist on.

I performed again today. I'm pretty dismal with the show. The sound i feel was just bad. Thanks God for supporting member who is ever so accomodating. Trust me, i know how bad it is the moment i play it. Cuz i had my better days before.

I really hate myself for what i've done today.

Perhaps cutting away from you will do both of us good.
I shouldn't have think too much
I gotta stay focus
Until i can solve the whole pack problems i have with me
Until i finish this remaining 4 months in NS
Life ain't perfect, people do screw up
The beauty comes with the grace of God
I need to shake myself off these thoughts
It's painful but i know i gotta do it.

Now it is really gone...

probably one of the best night i have in a while

Finally ISPC start tomorrow, and i'm really praying for a breakthru this time round. Ain't gonna be easy, but i'm putting up a fight of faith!

to Cheng:
hey girl, i know you've been reading, thanks for the sms. I'll probably catch up wid u soon the moment i've more time k, so sorry!

Tim:
Bro u still my buddie no matter what, altho i still wonder why am i'm always the one asking to meet you.

last night was hell for me.

I use to be a firm believer of friendship. when in time of need, good friend will rush down to meet you irregardless of where you are. I had no one.. and i really needed someone to listen last night. nvm..

Finally, i'm just with the inprocessing for upcoming scouts course for my men. It take lots of hardwork planning the stores, fighting for item that we can take from our limited resources, settling lots of paper work, like finally i'm done.

I quite satisfied on my fitness as well, at least i feel that i'm ready for scouts course wid my men. It'll be a real test for me as a commander, physically, mentally, spiritually even, i do hope that i can mature through this course..and off i go to ORD mood.

Looking really forward to 24th july, my Perth roadtrips with my fellow 4e classmates.
Powerpack, and it's all storing up, lets hope that all things go well this time round!!

I've never felt so worn out be4..

Just this week, i 've confirm my air ticket to PERTH! took my oversea leave from 24-31 july, and off with samuel, dan, jeremy, char, mg, will be heading to aust. Air ticket is really cheap, i got it like for $240!! it's like a steal la. But couple of issue at hand include planning the full itinery and we're having difficulty finding a MPV to rent, any suggestion??

I really think i need this trip off, consider it a once in a lifetime kind of thing to 'not to care anything else and have fun' kind of trip. I don't once i start working in future, i won't be in the mood and adventurous to do this kind of thing. Life is short, live it once, live it well with no regrets

It really sucks to pang seh your friends when you have a couple of group that jio you out. And I became superman for 4 hours! Why? after service last night, at 8 i rush over to majestic hotel at bukit pasoh to celebrate ben's birthday. This one is he booked me for like a month alr, i confirm cannot pang seh, summore the rest of my platoon mates are over there, so i went there chill, sang birthday song, gave present and yeah that's it, while the rest went ahead as usual to clubbing, this time zirca. that is till 10. Then i rush to bugis to find my cg, cuz i felt bad for always leaving straight away after svc, so go there catch up abit, collect my guitar from ed and rush over to beat merchant, by 11pm. I now with my secondary buddies, and they really want to jam quite badly, so just went there to help out give a couple of advice for fruitful jamming and that's about it. We played till 0045! cuz they made us wait at the sofa for like 45min!! Haha, strange, sometimes you just feel like splitting yourself up so that you can be at multiple places at one time, but we're given choice. Choice to choose who you really want to be with in the midst all your hectic schedule. Priority is the word to use, how u prioritise your life for friends and family members.

It's loads of fun just now after mingyan wedding when i head over to pierson's place for a short jamming session. I played his brother yamaha dtx express IV, pretty cool with the built-in soundtrack. Played a couple of funk tracks as he began to solo intensely over his PRS CE24. This guy is crazy, the amount he spend on a single overdrive pedal is like 500+ haha, tonight gotta book in by 9pm cuz there's a navex going on tomorrow which is kindda dumb, cuz we're the conducting staff, not the participant la! else i could have catch the last show tonight at mosaic outdoor theatre watch the lovely annebel francis and her husband shek heikel. LOL

I went to Mosaic Last night and it's Funk nights with local and Funkie! No stranger to the local music scene, they cover songs from the jackson family. Lots of groove over there with bassist KC, who seemingly look like pastor Aries. I really love the way he performs, how he move on the stage, and more importantly despite the technicality of the song, still delievers a awesome smooth voices. I want to capture that attitude of performing he has into my band. And the solos delivered by the guitarist is crazy! cuz his distortion is really to the max, yet he totally controls it without additional voice, note for note, it can be heard distinctingly, the BAND, manz..it was very very tight. They got the crowd moving off the seats, showered the audience with tonal quality unmatched by other band in the previous nights.

I'm going there again today to catch the Sexies, heard they play Tokyo Jihen stuff, that's technical too as well. Good awesome music this year at the music, i strongly encourage all music lover to go check it out.

And lastly, I FINALLY CLEAR MY IPPT with a SILVER. Killing my nemesis chin up with a record 9!! hahahaha

What does it truely means to express your emotion and feeling to correctly describe the mood you're in now. I'm feeling emotionally shut down. I don't even know i'm doing it the right way. Perhaps i'm scaring people away. I feel wierd, i make others feel weird, i'm trapped. It takes great courage to share with someone. But it really sucks when no ones really care. Tired..really....I could only thank God for those FEW close friends he has place in my life.

It's really nice to have a 4 day break from camp. It has a been a hectic week before that, all the mock instrusion rehersal for family day, 2 COS duty in a week, it's been crazy.

Went to NE tour yesterday and check out the Singapore high court as well as UrbanRedevelopment Authority. So much i could share about this interesting trip but there's a part of tour i really want to highlight, on terrorism.

If you take a walk down to UOB plaza at raffles, you probably has seens a fat bird statue by famous Italian artist Botero. It is one of the 4 in the world, but did you know another of his work has been bombed before sometime ago. I forget where's the exact location cuz the tour guide was murmuring, but she said that when asked to clear up the debris, the artist intentionally requested the bombed statue to be left there and the exact same site he build a replacement of the exact piece. So now there is 2 art piece side by side which the tour guide said the bombed one to represent stupidity and the other peace. Interesting isn't it, quite amazing to tell the world terrorism is just one plain act a stupidity, where destruction in the end still amount to nothing. Singapore is bless to have been peaceful till date isn't it. That we have time to enjoy art pieces like i mention and not having to worry about breads and butter of life. Of course the NE tour is design to brainwash us, but from the day i step into the NS, defending the nation was never a option, it is as real as it gets. So eitherway, Love our country, cherish it peace and continue to pray for prosperity.

Anyway i'm about to make a really important decision the next few days, as in whether should i sign on for 2 years in the midst of economic downturn. Unlike all my friends who parents can support them up till their degree, i'm gotta work my way out to finance my future studies. It's a good and bad thing, just the matter of how do i embrace this situation. Maybe i'll really treasure my schooling days then. Just pray that i don't make the wrong choice :X

So what i am doing out on a tues morning 11 am at home? I booked out of camp for physiotherapy session over at NUH, after the medical officer referral given a few weeks back. Quite refreshing, haven't been really injured to the extent i've to do physio before, and shucks it's really troublesome. Seriously i rather stay in bunk to rest and i doubt it'll speed my recovery. I'm getting quite worried for my ankle. Cuz it's been 2 months, and it still look swollen altho it doesn't feel as much pain. My men scouts course coming up, and i've got to prep up! Good news is i've been training my upper body and now i can do my long awaited 8 chin up!! *clapclap* it's a personal achievement, and now stamina is my weakest point, cuz i can't run!! It's like just a year back whe it was a exact opposite, i can do my 2.4 in a whooping 9.23 la! This is so weird.

Valentine this year was....i can't describe it, there is a good and bad part to it. Still kindda want to date that girl out yet something is withholding me. I begin to really think if i could ever get over wl, yea i still don't know why she'll still get stuck in my head. The good was that i get to chill with all my good friends, tim, ed and justine over at timbre oschool. you guys so gotta check that place out is really nice.

I want to comment that i've finally found a very very potential power vocalist for my band, PAMELA CHEW!! yes yes that hot girl you see on choir stage always and super zai in dancing one! haha. I gotta say she really gel in so nicely in our first studio rehersal. That's much to be improved but given her first try with us, i was blown away by her professionalism, vocal qualities and charisma. Plus she's young so there is so much more potential by the time she grow older, like really! Power de ma. Chilled out at coffeenation at bali lane be4 i rushed to book in for section L/F ;(

I personally think it has been a really eventful week. The CNY that i wasn't looking forward to turn out pretty well, suprisely. It's a good break, esp i get a total of 5 days off! from Sat till wed night and it was amazing. Pretty much i've been out everyday, check out my facebook, it has all the pictures i took recently.

After using my Nikon L18 for the past week, i gotta admit it is money well spent. I think it really help me to capture THE moment of my life, and really as and well i see something nice, i'll just triggerhappily shoot it away. which gave birth to this!

Anyway Ed, Andri and me has a jam session at tiet. Seriously feel that i've lost touch in my guitar. I will still remember back in Revo i used to experiment with sounds and that's all i focus on, playing my rig, but now altho i'm not the vocalist, i tend to focus more on the vocal aspect of the band. It so so important, cuz usually what happen was that buding band focus more on the music aspect and the guitarist will blast, bassist blast, drummer wack, resulted in thrash music. Sound management is crucial in making good band music. Perhaps that one area i should really take into account when we all jam. And yes, we're desperately looking for a vocalist that we can work with. I was shocked that wayne is volunteering himself, haha not bad for a at the edge CGL!! hmm still have yet to ask Pam to try, and i've got Nigel on the list as well. hope and i get to work with them soon so that i can get something out from the band in 2009.

Just a random thought before i left barrage last night with Andri and Ed, i blurt out "let's call ourselves ayam penyat!" haha, i think i sounds quite cheesy rite? like some mud rock band. Ok that's a random band name for now.

well it seems like i haven't update in a while.

WHY???

cuz i reaLLY REally busy in camp! Since my man came in end dec, i really got much time out of camp. All my life really revolves around the conduct of training, to rotational spec duty and my endless arrows in doing stores for all the outfields and live firing. I hate it!! but it proof one thing, my officer entrust me with that resposibilty as store spec cuz i DO job! yes i do it with detail, and i make those effort to pay attention to details. That really is one thing i learnt.

Anyway i really love the night view at marina barage. Probably the best place in singapore to seek solace, in the midst of busy working schedule. Thanks Alpha for the accompany :) and i think that day was the first time i see half red moon, freakin cool la.

CNY coming and i'm not really feeling the mood. but at least i got my new clothes!! My jeans and ed hardy top has arrived!! and mind you..these are real this time. Shopping online can be a really good option when u purchase from a reliable source like amazon.com, or zappos.com and overstock.com these are a few good merchant i reccomend from US. Then you ship it over via VPOST, and you can really save quite abit!! yea..

Goodbye to 2008 and HELLO 2009!!!

Here is a big happy new year 2009 to all of your out there. I believe it's gonna be a good year. And it's my ORD year! haha

2008 has been good and bad year for me, but it's time to forget about my past mistake, victories and all the old things and start living the present.

Few goals i really want to set.

1) Better relationship with friends and family
2) Rising up in music ministry
3) Finding myself a suitable partner
4) Financial freedom

There are to many things that i wish for, but let step out the year with a right mindset. 2009 here i come!

Ok today is really quiet. But any i decided to go online for a shopping spree. I got myself 2 item and i'm pretty sure i really want them.

Here it goes

Ed hardy panther hustle top from ebay S$95
and yes pst kong have the yellow version, and i really like it the first time i see it.
Brand new is US$99 on most online store

This is Ed hardy new york city design. I chose this because i didn't have a jeans of this colour depth. It's on sales and i got it for US$93 (S$130+) But it's sweet, muahah.

I can't believe it. This has been something i've been craving for super long la.

Few days back when i go shop around for wayne's present i chance upon this watch! I really like it, just to let u guy know, this a seiko limited ed Issey Miyake watch. It's simple yet classy, and it freaking nice. It cost $590. I guess i really want to save up for a nice watch in 2009.

Ok that's me in my bandaged leg. But my dad really cheer me up today. I was just xboxing and he left for work. 5 min later he knocked on my window and suprise with this giant scope ice cream. then i found out it's from the wheel cart vendor, but heck the day is really hot man. Haha, it's really just cracks me up. cuz my dad is like 63 this year alr.

And thanks Seow and Yun reei for the visit. Else ill be bored to death. 2 more days and i'll be back to camp. Hopefully time fly faster, it's freaking boring at home!!

it's boxing day, i had company cohesion at the CAGE kallang. So basically i played soccer and sprained my ankle real bad. I thought that just like ordinary sprain, it'll recover a while. That was around 10.30am. I head home after match on my bike, riding super slowly cuz i got much difficulty changing gears and took a shower and some rest. The swelling got up, next thing i know, i can't stand on both feet any longer, my ankle is busted. It was painful, and i had to wait for very long, before the medic from medical centre fetch me to NUH for diagnostic. Doc said that i suffer from 3rd grade sprain with damaged tissue which resulted in the immobilisation of my left ankle. It real pain, and i'm walking around in clutches now. I'm bloody moody now really! was given 5 days mc, and have to make arrangement for physio. Why does this has to happen to me!!!! seriously now i will really appreciate if anybody could just come and xbox with me at my place.

I got a call on the 11th and found this out. Ghee kiong broke the news to me.

we were in the same project group and tutorial mate in my 3rd year in poly.

Never did i expect such thing to happen to my friend. And just a month back he was just smsing me about where to buy insurance and stuff. Rest in peace brother!

And i haven't been feeling well the past 2 days. Kena food poisoning and vomitted quite badly yesterday, and have been sleeping all day. The feeling is really terrible, and i really hate it when i fall sick. It's either i'm healthy for one good year, and the next moment, BAM! one time good one..

I know bike riding is dangerous, so maybe the coming ending of my nike's COE, i'm considering quitting bike for good.